Lev gets off the bed and then picks me up and brings me into the bathroom. He grabs a warm rag and hands it to me. I take it and begin cleaning myself up. Lev and I are both still as naked as when we were born, and I figured it would be awkward, but it isn't. His face is soft as it looks at me, but I know he is letting a lot of thoughts run through his head.
"Do you want to tell me what you are thinking about?" Lev looks up at me shocked almost that I was able to read him. Reading the adult version of Lev isn't much different than reading the feelings of him as a teenager. He never got better at it apparently.
"Alek is going to fucking kill me." I look at his face waiting for him to laugh. He doesn't his face is like stone but in his eyes, I see a hint of fear. If Lev is afraid of Alek, this will not end well. "He told us not to touch you. Not to mention the crazy brothers are going to kick my ass too. I fucked up big time." I can't help but feel hurt at his last comment and helpless about anything else.
Lev turns around and starts the bath. He looks back at me and softens his features again. He reaches forward and tucks loose hair behind my ear. "Maybe they'll understand if I tell them a fox tricked me." He laughs at his own joke and looks back at me with a smile.
"You could just not tell them." As the words leave my lips, I regret saying them. Lev freezes and his relaxed posture tenses. His eyes are cold again much like when I first saw him in the cell.
"Kenna, lying to Alek and anyone of us, will result in your death. I will not lie or withhold information from Alek because if he found out later, that would mean a worse punishment. Besides, he is probably already aware. You weren't exactly quiet." I feel anger boiling inside me. He could have just said no but he had to make me look like a fool.
"Fuck you, Lev." I let every bit of my anger show in my face. He let his eyes roam every inch of my expression before saying anything.
"I already did, Kenna. And that's all it was, a convenient fuck." He walks out of the room and slams the bathroom door. I keep sitting on the counter while the tub continues to fill. He didn't leave my bedroom. I heard the bathroom door, but I didn't hear the bedroom one. He is still in my room. I don't want to see him for a while maybe I will take this bath if only to avoid him for a little bit.
I turn off the water and slide into the tub. I look in the mirror and see my reflection. My hair is a complete mess and my lips have very obviously been kissed. Tears are streaming down my face. When did that happen? When did I start crying? My conversation with Lev is still fresh in my mind. A convenient fuck? How could he say that? I feel so used. Though didn't I use him too? He got my mind off of everything for a time and I got him to tell me what actually happened with my father's betrayal. Was I using him? After a while, the tears stop coming and I clean myself up. After drying myself off and putting on pajamas, I don't see any remnants of the sex or the tears from before. I just look like I got out of the bath and got ready for bed.
When I walk back into the room, Lev is sitting in a chair fully clothed and on his phone. He doesn't even look up at me. I walk over to the light switch and turn off the lights ignoring the fact that he is still in the room. I get into bed, and close my eyes not giving him another thought. Sleep met my exhausted body quickly and I drifted off into a dream filled sleep.
