For the first time since getting my memories back, my dreams aren't so bad. My heart is slowly being pieced back together, but this is one amputation I don't think I'll learn to live with. Al will always be at the back of my mind and the front of my heart, I won't be able to shield myself from attacks as well. I'll always be numb with the grief.
When I wake, I can hear loud breathing and a little whine. Storm and Misty probably can't get in here. I jump up at the prospect of seeing them again. I remember though that they'll still feel hurt from me leaving them; just because I've got a completely shattered heart, doesn't mean I should start chipping away at their hearts.
I slowly gather my things, worried about how they'll react to seeing me again. I jump out of my little crevice and the wind gets hit right out my lungs. I'm thrown straight on the ground as Misty flies at me and licks my face and Storm is there as well.
I sit up slowly and give them both a hug; they've grown a bit in the past ten days. I spot movement out of the corner of my eye and I'm suddenly on my feet. I'm expecting an attack but what actually emerges from the shadows takes me by surprise. Spirit came with them; I rush over to her and give her a big hug. She's like another mother for Misty and other than Lupa she's like an older sister to me.
Whilst I'm hugging Spirit, the shadows seem to wrap around me too. Spirit is sharing her gift with me; I can sense a nervousness that was like the time she could sense the camp. Whilst Spirit is hiding in the shadows, Storm is crackling with lightning and Misty is fading in and out of a little mist cloud.
I'm concerned as to why they're nervous, but I can feel the tension building in my stomach. I'm suddenly surrounded by a misty shadow and I'm crackling with lightning like Storm. Somehow they've all shared their gifts with me, I need to repay them but I don't have anything they don't have except my wings and I don't know how to give them that.
Whilst I'm in the depths of the misty shadow I can feel the need to help my friends grow stronger until it's outweighing my nervousness. I sense a flash of red light come from me and I realise I've knocked them unconscious. Oh great. They come to rescue you and what do you do Leo? You knock them unconscious, that's ungratefulness if I ever saw it. I'm mentally scolding myself so badly; I don't notice the red glow coming from the three wolves.
When I finally turn around they've regained consciousness and they all have wings. My face stretches into a smile as I feel a massive explosion rock the cliff and we go plummeting to the ground. My vision blacks out as I whack my head on a boulder and whilst I'm out cold my imagination runs wild with all the worst possible scenarios for what's happened.
I imagine Spirit, Storm and Misty being caught and tortured whilst I'm lying in the midst of the rubble not doing anything to help them. They die because I deserted them when they needed me most.
As I'm coming back to consciousness, my heart shatters again and thoughts of death spring to the forefront of my mind. The grief of Al's death and now the possible death of these three washes over me. I've snapped. If this has happened I won't be able to carry on with the grief, the guilt. I'll be a working zombie, hiding my personality to stop myself from embracing the dark abyss that lies before my eyes.
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Alone in a Busy World
FantasyA young boy with talent is searching for his memories. When he recovers them, he's not sure if he'll be able to keep going. With the help of a kind wolf he finds a loving family and sets out to destroy the group that destroyed his life.
