Beautiful Pain (True Beauty Fanfiction)

Chapter 18

How could I sleep peacefully when he admitted his feeling to me?

Moving side to side, I was in a dilemma. Seo-Joon went home not baring the quietness between the two of us. Doesn't he know this question will destroy our friendship?

Seo-Joon has been there for me but to think of him as my boyfriend, it just brought mixed feeling. Pushing the pillow on top of my face, I groaned of how I can get through this.

Morning came by and I was nervous going through the school corridor. Trying not to bump into a particular person. Holding my backpack a hand on my shoulder caused me to gasp.

"Soo-Jin!" I breath in relief knowing it was her.

"What? You look like you've seen a ghost" She spoke sensing the jumpiness act of mine. I shook my head in disagreement and pull her to a secluded place. Right there I told her what happened last night.

"Seo-Joon LIKE YOU?!!" I clasped her mouth when students stare at us.

"Quiet! Yes but I didn't give him answer." I replied in a hushed tone. It was true Seo-Joon left before I could even gather my thought.

"Well, I think you should give it a try." Soo-Jin answered, which makes me puzzled.

"Look think about it. Suho is with Joo-Kyung and you with Seo-Joon it's a win-win situation." She explained further, rubbing my temple I didn't know how my life turned troublesome.

All I wanted is to be friends with them.

"But I don't love him" I justify, I could never imagine Seo-Joon and I going on a date. The thought of it is comical.

"Really? Then why are you blushing so hard talking about it?" Soo-Jin raised her eyebrows and hold both of my cheek. They were heating up like a steam bun and this isn't a good.

Before I could argue, I saw Seo-Joon from far away. Which caused me run the other way leaving Soo-Jin in the open air.

I don't know where I was running, but I was pretty sure he wouldn't go this way. Seeing no one was around I was about to leave but a hand pull me inside the janitor closet. I was about to scream until I noticed who did it.

"Suho? What the hell? Why are you here and why did you pull me in with you?!" Thousand of question poured out from my mouth. The small room we are in doesn't look good to people's eye.

"We haven't talk for a while. You seem preoccupied. I felt like you shut me out from your life" Suho never like to express his feeling unless he needed to know. A few days of not communicating with Suho make me realize I wasn't holding to our friendship.

"I'm sorry a lot of things have happened. And you dating Joo-Kyung isn't a good sign for both of us to be close." I spoke the last sentence in a whispered that only I can hear. I just couldn't stand both of them in the same place therefore I choose not to focus on them.

But it caused Suho to be hurt.

"Next time just talk to me, I need you as a friend like back then." I didn't want him to emphasize our status, but I could only shake my head in agreement.

When our conversation was done I opened the closet. But then close it back in a hurry when I saw Seo-Joon. This caused me to hush Suho so Seo-Joon won't hear us.

"What's going on?" Suho only caught a glimpse of Seo-Joon and notice the wariness of my face.

"Nothing, I have to go now." This time I got out in cautiousness and facepalm myself.

How can I face both of them?

"Chae-Rin is it true that you are dating Seo-Joon?" Just when I thought people have left me alone, Hyun-Gyu approached me.

"What are you talking about?" I asked back.

"I heard from Seo-Joon you guys ate ramen last night at your place." He spoke which cause everybody attention on me. In Korea, eating ramen in one roof with a guy has a double meaning.

"Is none of your business stop pestering me!" I shouted before walking back to my seat trying to avoid the stares. I was in disbelieve how Seo-Joon could say this easily to people. A buzz in my pocket makes me reach my phone.

Is it true?- Suho

And now Suho wants to know the detail. Ignoring his text message, I focus on the lesson.

"Park Chae-Rin stop right there?" I was about to leave with Soo-Jin and Soo-A but I got called out by none other Han Seo-Joon. He commanded me to stay which make Soo-Jin dragged Soo-A from away from us.

"Let's talk." I know I can't avoid him forever, I have to be brave and handle this like an adult.

"About last night..." He started, we were at the school garden but far from the students eyes. We know it needs to be private.

"You don't have to give me an answer, but I just want to tell you that I like you Chae-Rin" He admitted, I gulped down my saliva seeing how serious he was with his confession.

"How .. long have you like me?"

"Before Suho dated you." He chuckles, realization start to hit me when it's been a long time.

"I'm so sorry" Before I could apologize he pushed me to wall and traps me between his arms.

""I don't want your apology, It was my regret to not tell you and letting you go" His words came out smooth and touches my heart. My eyes began to burn, and I tried not to let tears came out.

He holds his feeling for me, but I was a fool that could only care about herself. He was so happy when I dated Suho, but I didn't know he was hurting on the inside.

"Don't cry, I don't want you to waste your tears." His thumb brushes the tears away that slid out from my eyes.

"How could I not? Idiot, you could have told me earlier. Your feeling also matters." He was always there, giving me his comfort throughout my relationship but I didn't know it slice a wound to his heart. Seo-Joon pulled me in his embrace, and I push my face deeper in his chest.

"I can't give you an answer right now but I hope nothing change between us." I explained, I wanted to take time for my heart to grasp if I love him or not. Seo-Joon nodded in understandable.

Please give me time Seo-Joon.