Beautiful Pain (True Beauty Fanfiction)

Chapter 41

"Nice to meet you everyone. My name is Lim Joo-Kyung. Please take care of me." Joo-Kyung bowed her head as everyone clapped in acknowledgement. They all look friendly towards her except me. I was dazzle seeing her here. Out of every place she chooses to work here. This small company, where Suho manage and where I'm working at. The fact that my boyfriend didn't told me pissed me even more.

"I can't believe Ju-Bal is here." I muttered under my breath. Eating the cucumber, I glance at the mirror. The scowl on my face was apparent. That girl should have been social distancing herself from my life. But without worries she steps in.

I know there's nothing going on between Suho and Joo-Kyung anymore but this feeling, brought back to high school. Where misery started.

I could feel headache pounding in my head but it was no use. I couldn't rest knowing I had my schedule. To top it off, Joo-Kyung enter the room to do my make-up.

"Why are you here Ju-Bal?!" I hissed at her as the girl startles. Like a venomous snake I was ready to poison her with my words.

"I was told to do your make-up by the senior. Can we just not fight?" She looked defeated with my anger and wanted to stay silent until she fix my face up.

"Why are you working here?" I spoke once again. This time I was calmer. I could see her unpacking the brush before spraying the face mist to my skin.

"I needed a job, so Suho offered me." She explained directly to me. I didn't know they were still exchanging messages to each other. I was oblivious to all of this. I didn't say more of it, I was tired of blowing my head thinking of Joo-Kyung. As long as she knows the boundaries then is all clear to me.

But I was wrong.

Very wrong.

When everybody went home. Suho was still in his office. Walking to where he is I saw his light turn dim. Curious to why, I open the door and saw him hugging Joo-Kyung. Hurt flashes my eyes seeing them being cozy with each other.

"Oh so this is what's going on!" I yelled. They flinch when they heard my voice. Still confound with this situation I stare at Suho.

"It isn't what you think, she was crying and I was comforting her." I glance at Joo-Kyung and see her puffy red eyes. Suho was telling me the truth.

But I was too caught up in my feeling. Going up to her, I slapped her cheek. To be honest I should have done it a long time ago. The feeling felt good.

"Chae-Rin!" He screams my name shock with my attitude.

"You witch. Stop being near Suho. Find somebody else to mess with." No matter where I go traces of breadcrumbs follows. And she was those crumbs. I bit my lip harshly angry at Joo-Kyung for acting like a poor helpless girl.

"Stop being so jealous of her. She didn't do anything wrong. This is what I hate about you." Suho shouted, defending her. My ear almost turns deaf each time he yelled those hurtful things.

"Unbelievable. You know what. You both deserve each other. You heartless freaks!" I grasp out of Suho touch before making my way out of the place. We were only together for a week and now I want to quit. All because of that girl. She still has him wrapped around her finger.

I thought about ranting to Soo-A but I realized she's on her second date with Jung-Hyung. Soo-Jin isn't even here and no one else I could talk with other than Seo-Joon. Seeing it was late in the evening I made my way to his house. Despite his busy schedule as a singer, I know I can still relied on him. Knocking on his door, Seo-Joon open it, he has his headphone around his neck.

"Am I interrupting you?" Seeing that he isn't sleeping I felt bad for coming here. Just to pour out my dilemma.

"No I'm just trying to arrange my music. Come in, it's been a while since I've saw you." Seo-Joon step aside and let my figure walk in. I gave him a weak smile before glancing at his place. Trailing behind Seo-Joon he asked me to follow him. His other room has change into a studio. The dedication he has being a singer whim my heart. He wanted to sing for Seo-Yeon once again.

"I'm having a comeback album. Will you listen to it?" I nod my head delightedly. I couldn't reject the offer of being sing by a famous singer. He grinned before holding his guitar. Tuning the string, he let out a melodious voice.

I think of you in my loneliest night.
Your smile that lights up
Has my heart trembled
I could only see this in my dream.
Because you aren't mine anymore
My memories

As he sang, I could feel my heart move by it. He was conveying the lyrics beautifully, and I stare in awe. Seo-Joon the boy who I knew since high school has become mature. He has a great career with fans that support him, he came along way. Just to be here.

Each step you took
Getting further from me
Trying to chase you
I ended up at the same start.
With this hidden feeling

When he finishes, I clapped my hand. His fans would be lucky to hear this song when he publishes it. Seo-Joon smiled sheepishly and I gave him a thumb up.

"Gosh! You made me sentimental now. It's such a good song!" I stated in proudness. When Seo-Joon get his head in music, the aura he reflects is different. The goofy guy who made fun of my weird laugh was gone instantly.

"It's thanks to you." My index finger point at my self, flabbergasted with what he means. Seo-Joon chuckle at my dumbfounded expression.

"I wrote all of this song because of you. I guess that's why it's sappy. But hey! People bought it, and that's all it matters."

I'm such a disgrace to humankind. This guy is trying to forget me and here I was, wanting to complain about Suho getting close with Joo-Kyung. Is like opening an unclosed wound. I tried to smile but failed miserably.

"I'm guessing Joo-Kyung is working at your company?" Like a hidden bomb he spoke it out loud. Making me startle at how he know.

"H-how did -"

"Joo-Kyung told me." Looks like everybody else know it except me. I was left in the dark. Pushing my hair to the back, I sighed, what got everybody secretive towards me?

"Suho didn't tell you? Wow. I also know Suho is dating you. That man proclaims it when we hang out. I wasn't surprise tho. I knew you would choose him in the end." Seo-Joon said scathingly, he was still angry at how I chose him. That guy only gives me pain.

"I'm jealous, I wish somebody would love me the way like you love Suho." Playing with my hand, I was afraid to look at his hurtful face. He was waiting for that one girl who can give him her all. There's time where I wish I can be like that.

I start sobbing feeling like the bad guy once again. Seo-Joon put me in his arm and rubbed my hair gently.

"I'm sorry, I want to love you. I try so hard. But -" My weep got louder the more I speak. I was apologizing endlessly for hurting him. He doesn't deserve this. No one does.

"Is alright my Chae-Rin. Don't let love hindrance our friendship." He whispered. He was a good guy, who has been thrown into a wild ride of rejection over and over again. Seo-Joon the guy who wouldn't let anybody hurt me, who makes me smile while acting like a fool.

I want him.

But why does my heart only beat for Suho?