HOW DID I SURVIVE

CHAPTER 4:

My sister even took Matthew E, to the mental health to see a doctor and they prescribed him 6 types of medication. he never took. he got a job and my mom even let him barrow the car to go to work and come home and come to find out he wasn't at work half the time. he was at his mom's so my mom took the car and refused to let him drive anymore. and come to find out he got fired. 

he had another job and they loan him a bike and he claimed he got pulled over by a cop on a road he wasn't suppose to  be on. and the bike was stolen. another night he came home. with his hand bleeding and I had to have my sister come over and bandage it. and he claimed they were closing and this guy in the drive through got made over not getting a straw with his drink and the female manager was out side and noticed them arguing and he stepped in and the guy stabbed him.. well if that was true why didn't the cops come out and why didn't he go to the hospital.

he would steal my food stamp card and sell them for money I had to keep cancelling my card and get a new one. then found out he was buy the next door neighbor's sister stuff and was cheating on me with her. there was a night he came home cut up and bleeding and said him and his friend wrecked a truck running from the cops. we had cops at our house that came out and said that my sister called because we was arguing with my grandmother. which wasn't really true she wouldn't stop telling everything my kids were doing. I was schooling online and he wouldn't help me and I told her I don't care what they are doing, I'm busy he can do it.

they ran his name and said they was not gonna arrest him to get a job and get us our own home. do better for our kids. later that night. 12am the cops show up. I said can I help you and they said we need to talk to your husband I said  we already talk to the police and they said well we need to talk to him again. so I never gave them permission to come in, I turned around and went to wake him up he had my son on the blank on the floor next to him. he fell asleep and i hadn't moved him yet and my daughter was on him. as I went to pick her up they grabbed his arm and almost knocked me over.

said that he was being arrested for running from the police, and DFS was called yet again. they said we couldn't stay there due to the conditions of the house. i called everyone i thought of and they had to check they're house's to make sure it was approved. and i didn't care he was going to jail. I asked what about a shelter. and they said they don't have room we'd be separated. plus why would you put your kids in that situation. I said he's abusive. so she said they can see if they have any room at the domestic violence shelters. well that night i had a anxiety panic attack and I ended up at the ER after that  my sisters for a week and then they took us out there. I lived in a DVS for a month. three of my kids were by there selves. I had to make arrangements to even see them. which was hardly at all.

after awhile I was told I was being moved to a better DVS and needed to stay somewhere for a week. until they could get a ride to meet me to take us to the shelter. because they don't want anyone knowing the location we met at the police station. where they went to day care and school. we was in one big room and was there 7 months. in that 7 months, I would take the bus to my mom's to visit her and my stepdad and sister and then sometimes I'd go see him, found out he was still cheating. I saw on Facebook a picture of him and the neighbor's sister he was standing behind her holding her and she had our last name. 

so I told him we were done. he claimed she asked him to pose with her. I said your posing like you just got married. so were done and I reported her for false name and the last time I spoke or seen him me and the kids went to stay the night and my brother in law let him come over and so we could talk and they had a guy staying there. and he started fighting with me and said he was leaving and was carrying a bat around and my nephew got his dad and told him. 

Matt claimed my brother in law called the cops or something about they're trying to kill him. was acting crazy. so he kicked him out. and the next morning. I'm still upset. they kids are crying there's no milk. so Jamie said he'd be back he's going to the store and as he was living Matt showed up saying you got a probably keep walking. and I said you need to leave, I'm done  and they don't want you hear. and he accused me of sleeping with Jamie. 

later he had brought milk back said he got it for the kids. and my sister told me his story and everything so we all was talking about everything. after going back to the shelter. still looking for the right house to get. me and Jamie started talking and texting. and he said he would help me move. I had finally got a house and the utilities set up and everything a starting boxing stuff up for the move.

both my sister came in separate vehicles. the DVS agreed to allow them come to the front door to get my stuff. we get there and Jamie was there to help out and after they unloaded they're van they had to hurry to leave. and left him there to help rearrange everything. so me and him and all my kids were all trying to put away. he fell asleep and the kids. and I stayed up all night,

2 days in a row all he mainly did was sleep. and eat. and wouldn't leave. he ended up moving in and we started dating. everything was going well until I needed a job and he was on disability even though I had food stamps, I still needed to pay utilities. 

the kids were all in school except, Rosie and Noah. I was still trying to figure out if I could trust him with my kids. DFS came out and I told her about him and everything. so when she came out the next time, she asked what all did I know about his criminal record, and told her. she approved him. and said the next visit is the last visit. I was so excited and happy. and then came disappointment.