HOW DID I SURVIVE

CHAPTER 5:

Everything was going great, DFS was gone and I had my own place the kids were in school I just needed to find a daycare or someone to trust with the kids. I had no car. so it have to be a job close by.

all the sudden thing's changed. he would take the kids the the little store down the street and by drinks or snacks for the kids and cigarettes. and he came in one day, and said my kids saw they're dad at the store. he knows where you live. he doesn't know if he followed them or not.

later I found out he told my kids to lie. when I asked them alone, they said they lied cause they are scared of Jamie. I let my niece move in and her boyfriend was supposed to as well but didn't and she'd watch the kids so we could live together sometimes just to get out of the house. he said snuck a guy upstairs and was having sex he heard it. so I asked she said no.

then another time he claimed she was on drugs and he knew exactly where the stuff was. and she said it wasn't hers. it was probably his no doubt. she ended up moving out. and later my sister wanted to move in and I didn't let them I regret it now. not to long after she moved out. things got even worse. he was always hanging around his brother, getting high on pot. drinking.

to where he was freaking my kids out. he was saying Matt had broke in and stole his card. and spent all the money on it. he screwed all the windows closed. I only allowed him to do that, because I was still getting to know him. right before my birthday my dad gave me a dog. he couldn't keep anymore and I ended up getting sick. for two week's. he brought people I didn't know in my house around my kids. he took them up to our room .. at the time I was in the main part of the house I couldn't make it up all the stairs, he came down and told me he'd go get me medicine he'd be back, he came back and said he couldn't get it. and went up to the bedroom again and my son had went upstairs and said that lady is in your room going through your stuff. I said tell him to come down here now. 

he come's down I said what are them people doing in my room going threw my shit. he claimed she was helping clean up the room. I don't want people touching my stuff. they need to leave now. so they all come down stair's and she start's saying I don't know what your problem is we was helping you clean your room, I said I am sick. you lied about getting me medicine. your touching my belonging's. I don't know you. you come in my house without my permission around my kids. leave now. 

then all hell broke loose. all the sudden he says your not sick your hiding a man in your bed having sex with him. (in the mattress) my kids are right there  like I would  be having sex with someone. so I get up and said look for yourself dumbass. he look's in there and has his can of axe in his hand and says he will set it on fire if he doesn't get out. like your that dumb you just sliced a hole in the bed. where is this man at you claim is in there. he set my bed on fire. 

and then it snaps in his head I guess that it was a stupid idea I said  turn on the shower and put it in there .. it didn't work though he didn't even turn it on.. so the kids run next door tell the neighbors to call the police. two of my kids were up stair my oldest grabbed Noah and I grabbed my daughter they got out as I turn around nothing but smoke was in my face we fell down the stairs and ran out. to the neighbors. everyone got out and waited at the neighbors.

of course I lied for him.. I shouldn't have. we got money from people who lost they're homes. and went to a hotel paid for a few day. my mom took him and the kids shopping. and got clothes and shoes and coats dishes stuff for the dog. medicine. come's back told me to shower. see if it helps. and I'm trying to shower and he comes in to help me because I can barely and forces me to have sex with him. like what the hell is wrong with this picture. he didn't care that he took everything from me in 5 months that I fought for.. so my kids could have a life. by the second day they took me to the ER they told him they have to keep me over night. so he left to take care of the kids. and I hated it. the doctor said I had kidney infection..