HOW DID I SURVIVE

CHAPTER: 8

anyone I broke up with would always accuse me of leaving them for another man. so that's what he had assumed, and I said no that's not why, it's because I'm trying to get my life back together, no thanks to you. you have taken everything from me, just like my ex, except it only took you a year or less, I'm fighting to get my kids back, I have to pull myself together and get a job a car and a place to live, and things they need. I can't do that living in a hotel with your brother and his wife and wasting time. so I'm moving out. and I will still send you your money and food and talk to you, but no more calling me all day long, I can't answer my phone when I get a job. 

well one night I was talking to him, arguing with him, because he would call all the time begging me to take him back, lying saying he's getting out soon and I already knew how long he was gonna be locked up, but again I told him no, we are done, I'm not going to be in a abusive relationship, then he had the nerve to say maybe he can live with us as a room mate, or a house close by, I said no, I wouldn't even give him the address, he was sending mail, to my sister.

he had the nerve to say he helped get that house it was his money I used. I said excuse me. uh no it was my money out of my pay check, unlike you who wasted yours on drugs all the time, I bought my car, everything I've bought for that car has been from my pay checks. the house money came from me as well, I'm not stupid and you can look over your bank statements and don't even try to sue me either because all your calls are recorded and you told me to use your card. you gave me permission to use the card.

I also told him I'd just give it to his family but he told me no, because he knows he could trust me with it, and they can't be trusted.  well jay T. had lived across the street and was sitting on the porch with his sister, but the only reason I was even outside was because the signal was crap so I always had to run outside in the yard, and I'm standing there and next thing I know Jay T. walk's up and I put the phone against my chest and said not now. and he grabbed my face and kissed me, I ended my call by just hanging up, and listened to what he needed to say. he said he was sorry that he missed me all this stuff, asked me to come over and hang out on the porch with him his sister and he's friend.

so I did, he sister was nice and his friend, I don't think I stayed the night, I don't remember, but after that I thought we was back together and then later found out he was trying to set me up with his friend, because he supposedly was trying to not jeopardize he's wife, who was with another man, find out he was dating, which the sister came over and saw me there and said I didn't seem to bad, I seem like a nice person.

see not to long after I had moved In with him, we went back to where my mom lived and he would do laundry while we was there, and because I had asked if he was coming back. and he said he was staying at the sisters house with is kids, I told him it was suppose to snow in the morning, he had said if it was gonna snow we was suppose to live that night. and he said he'd come by early morning and he never showed up and I had a feeling he was playing me. he finally messaged me and told me that no one was going to keep him away from his kids and I was trying to, and that he was already home, 

I said I was not trying to do anything, you told me, you didn't want to risk driving in the snow and its now my fault, he said I had to either come get my things or wait tell he came back, and then right before my birthday, he messaged we need to talk. you can either come get your stuff or come back. so I tried to get someone to take me and my dad finally said he would take me and so he met my dad, and dad had to use the bathroom and while he was in there, he took me in the bedroom and there was flowers and a card saying he was sorry and he loved me. so I ended up staying.

but I did live with him for two weeks at that time, but he came home with some girl and kicked me out, that's when I moved in with my sister and he ended up moving to Nevada and I moved in with him, any way's, after getting a job, and everything, we had moved into a house, and I thought everything was going great, until one weekend he went to do laundry and see his kids. and he never once messaged me at all, and he came home and brought a woman home with him. and told me I had to day's to move out.