anesthesia

prologue

" I swear Harry if you another corny joke im leaving this restaurant and walking home" I say rolling my eyes as Harry's cracking himself up all while stuffing his face with breadsticks.

Harry decided at school today to take me out to dinner tonight going on and on about how he has some big news to tell me and he had to tell me right away.

Were graduating this year and we dont really go out a lot being so busy with our lives in and out of school so Harry asking me to dinner is kinda a big deal to me.

" I cant help it, it aint easy being cheesy" harry smirks at me resting his elbow on the table leaving his arm straight up with his hand open for his head to rest in.

" okay facetime me the news later yeah?" I say pushing my hands off the gable to stand up and prepare for the walk home.

" Lea Faye dont you dare" harry says reaching his hand across the table to grab my Hand stopping me from leaving.

I shoot my head straight down to look at him holding my hand basically begging me with his eyes to tell me to sit down.

He doesn't even need to speak to me for me to understand what he wants.

" you'll want to hear this news in person it'll be joke free I swear." harry says emphasizing swear making sure I understand he's serious.

" fine I dont feel like ruining  my shoes anyways." I say adjusting myself back in my chair

"ill stay only if I get to share my news first" Immediately feeling my hands getting sweaty.

me and harry started dating towards the end of sophomore year. we've pretty much been best friends before then, we met in high school and I swear we just clicked. so when harry asked me to dinner tonight I thought after being together for so long I think its time to tell him how I feel, how I truly  feel. Harry and I are both very passionate about music and we even have wrote a couple songs together. I've been looking into schools for me and harry to attend to together and I really think harry will feel the same way. I cant think about any negative outcomes or this backfiring on me I just have to say what comes to my head and just do.

im very nervous now that im thinking about it.

" you didn't tell me you had news." harry says a little shoked and more confused as to what the news is.

"well its not really news news. Its just.... something ive been meaning to say for a while I just didn't know when I good time to say it was." I say picking at my nail beds as I try and calm myself down.

"oh no youre pregnant right? youre pregnant aren't you? its okay just tell me." harry says almost whispering, his accent coming out more as he whispered.

"Harry calm down no im not pregnant." I say trying to hold in my laughter watching harrys chest deflate as harry exhales and shakes his head.

I think I saw the life flash back into his eyes.

" im sorry I didn't know what else there is that you have to tell me that would have you THIS worked up." harry says looking back up at me giving me a small smile.

"its okay im just really nervous its pretty important to me what I have to say" I tell harry as I see he's looking around wondering where our food is.

impatient impatient. he's like this every where we go.

Harry turns back to me and reaches out to grab my hand squeezing it "dont worry its just me, you can tell me"

"okay just dont think im crazy" I tell him softly

"my star? never." he tells me smirking at me