anesthesia

II

Leave it to me to want to back out of our plans.

After finishing 2 more joints we finally left the festival to head back to our hotel. We discuss the rundown of tonight and what time we need to meet back down in the garage at the bottom of the hotel so we don't get swarmed by people, we're already gonna get enough of that tonight.

"So our car is gonna be back here at 10:30 were going to that new club everyone has been raving about, apparently is super exclusive but don't worry they know were coming.'' Jackson turns to tell Isaac and I sitting in the back of the big escalade.

"Yeah yeah we know the game plan Jackson just chill let the night take us where it wants us to go" Isaac says with his eyes closed and his head leaning on the head rest trying to take a quick power nap.

Jackson doesn't even bother to entertain Isaac, instead he just rolls his eyes and turns back around mumbling a couple of insults under his breath.

Jackson just likes to be organized, you can never spring anything last minute with this kid he will freak.

I pay no mind to Jackson and Isaacs childish bickering as Im staring blankly out the window, watching the city view and all the pretty lights. The skyscraper lights give off a pretty iridescent bluish tone and it hypnotizes me into my own thoughts.

I really don't wanna go out anymore.

I always end up getting bored so quickly, it's always the same thing every time we go. We get there we say hello to our friends and other celebs there, get escorted to our section, order bottle service, take a few shots get a couple of bumps right after, dance my ass off till i can't even feel my feet, sit down for a "break", try to get convinced to go back and dance, i tell them no and just watch them have a good time without me, leaving me back in to my thoughts, which leads me to becoming upset and turning into the buzzkill who just wants to go home. On top of that nothing ever exciting ever happens at the club anymore, I don't even get fucked up like I used to.

I just always have a missing feeling when i'm out. I almost don't feel complete.

I'm pulled out of my thoughts when I begin to see white concrete walls instead of beautiful city scenery and I realize we're pulling into the parking garage. The seconds the car stops Jackson jumps out leaving the door open to help Isaac and I out of the car. I hop out of the car followed by Isaac as we all quickly rush to the elevators since we are in a time crunch.

When we reach the elevators, Isaac presses the little button to take us up and steps back as we all wait for the elevator.

Once we hear the elevator ding and open we all scramble in each one of us standing on a side of the elevator as I press the button to our floor.

We all sit in silence as we ride the elevator up to our floor. It's not awkward silence, just silence that shows how tired we all actually are. Nothing a quick bump wont fix though.