Sleep with one eye open

A Day Without You..

DEREK'S POV:

Penelope Garcia Morgan is the love of my life. She sole my heart the moment she spoke to me. Her voice was the only thing that made my bad days good. She will always be my baby girl. I love her. That son of a b**ch Miles almost got her. He almost took her life once. And now... I don't know what to do. He got her again.. But this time they are almost positive she won't wake up. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid! Why didn't you stop him...?! Why didn't you shoot him when you had the chance. Why!? Why did I have to be so stupid. Now my love is laying here.. A bullet hole just over the bullet proof vest... Dying. All because I didn't stop him. I hate myself for letting her go through this. Why didn't I catch on!? We didn't see, or hear from the room next door the entire time. I should have caught on sooner that it was Miles. I should have but I didn't. My mind is letting me down and I got my baby girl killed because of it... It won't be long before they decide to stop with trying to keep her breathing and her heart beating.. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. She's my entire world. Penelope can make me laugh no matter what's going on in my own head. She makes my day brighter and my heart happier. And now.. I don't know what I'm going to do.. I'm not leaving her side. Not even for a second.. I just can't miss any second with her while she's alive....
"Baby girl.. If you can hear me. I'm sorry. I'm sorry this happened.. I'm sorry I let you down. I'll be kicking myself for the rest of my life for what happened.. Even if you come out of this... Even if you forgive me.. I will never forgive myself for making you feel pain. I'm sorry. I love you more than I have ever loved anything in the world. I can't even begin to explain to you the feeling I get when I hear your voice.. Or when I see those beautiful eyes... Baby... You mean more to me than anything. And I don't know how my life is going to be without you.. Please... Stay with me. Don't leave. Don't leave me. I need you. Penelope.. If you can hear me.. Please hang on.. Don't leave just yet..."
I can't handle the thought of losing her...
My thoughts are interrupted by the doctor.
"Have you decided yet..?" The doctor asked me. I struggle to say the words...
"Yes... I have.. I can't live without her. I can't breathe without her... I don't want to give up.. She will come out of it. I don't care if it takes a hundred surgeries for you guys to fix it. She will live. And she won't EVER feel pain again. I need her..."
"Okay.. Let me check to see what surgeons we have today.. I understand.. I went through this with my husband... I get what you're feeling.. We will do whatever possible to keep her with you.. With absolutely no charge.. You have enough to worry about..."
"Thank you.." I hope that they have surgeons that can get the bullet out today... I don't want to live another day without her...