The Thoughts Of A Teenager

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"I miss the old you"
-blackbear

why is it so hard to let go?
life would be so much easier if i just cared less
felt less
loved less...
sometimes i wish to go back to never feeling like this
never caring
never starting
at least not in the way i do now
who's fault is it?
i can't say
but i can say that i hate it
getting a text message and still hoping it's you
how much time does have to pass for me to look you in the eye and truly mean what i say?
i'd like to think it's all your fault
but i have a feeling it's not
i miss you even though you're still here
just
i miss the you you showed me in the beginning
and the saddest part is that i know i ruined it
i should've kept my mouth shut
now look at us
or maybe you should've just never showed me that lovable, vulnerable side you seem to now hide from me with all your might
i should've never glimpsed it
because then i wouldn't be missing
missing you
a you that doesn't seem to exist anymore
please
let it go away...