Loved- Nian

8

It was the end of the summer and she was bring her back She had loved spending time with her daughter the whole summer just the two of them. She hated the time that she hadd to be away from her daughter and it was making her really depressed and she didn't like being like that. She knocked on the door Ameila was sleep in her arms.

Ian opened the door he had expected her but not that Early."I said Septembr 1st i would bring her back."

He nodded she looked better then last time she no longer looked as if she hadn't slept he could tell that something was up with her but he didn't know what."You looked healthier."

She glared at him he didn't even seem to know the meaning of his words. She may have looked Healthier but she was doing far worse than she had been when she left."That is not funny she's sleep i couldn't bare to say goodbye i don't know the next time i can see her i have a lot of things on my plate right now jobs that i have to do and i'm back in La for it." She'd  loved the time that she had gotten to be with her daughte rnow it was back to reality she had to go back to work and that upset her.

"You look sad what's wrong?"

She didn't like that he could still figure it out but somethings never changed."I don't want to go back to work but their isn't much of a choice video chat please i can't take being away from her." She knew she was starting to sound desperate but honestly she was. She hated being away from her latley she had time to think and now she regreted not saying yes in 2013. Cause if she was honest she missed him to he always had the answer for everything and that was something she was struggling with right now. He knew how to get her to calm down and that was something that she had always loved about him but it was to late. She hated that she had to still see him but she wouldn't trade her daughter for the world. And one of the minus had to be that she always had to see him to see her daughter. You couldn't just fall out of loving someone after loving them for 3 years and still having to be someone's on screen girlfriend.

Depression was real for her and she knew it. She never wanted kids but now that she had one this was all taking a toll on her. She didn't date cause she was to scared that they'd hate her and tell everyone that she was Ameila's mother and she didn't want her in the spotlight she was way to young for it.

"It's getting hard to come back and see her press has been following me everywhere but i had fun with her and they didn't question who she is but its a matter of time and i don't want her in the spotlight you having a daughter was everywhere when they find out i gave birth to her we basically gave her childhood right to them."

"I know." He knew how much that meant to her that Ameia had a good childhood that wasn't about her being folowed with a camera.

"There are reasons why i do what i do i may hate it but i have to. There not ruining my daughters childhood because of there stupid need to know everything." She looked down at her sleeping daughter in her arms. She didn't want to leave but she didn't have another choice she had to leave her daughter she was better with her father."Here take her i have to go before i start crying"

He gently took Ameila."She's gonna be mad when she wakes up and your nowhere to be found."

"Yeah but i can't think about that right now." Her eyes were already clouding."Bye." She turned and ran back to her car. She got in and drove away this was always the hard part for her leaving Ameila. Leaving them and not showing up for months because she couldn't she didn't have the time. They lived in two different places and they had two different lives and hers just wasn't fit for her to get to see her baby.