Interim

nine

A month has passed and I haven't talked to Zach. He has texted and called me a couple times but I couldn't find the courage to answer back. A month without Zach, honestly feels like years without him. I even started to wonder if he found somebody new or if a huge life changing event came his way. I would probably never know now anyways.

I was horribly busy with my studies and with my new job. I work at the local library and I get paid a fairly great price, $27.00 an hour. Considering the fact that I am the youngest worker there, I'm usually the one now to be doing mostly everything.

From helping everyone find a book, to being a cashier, to being the one to sort out the books, and even the one to read to the little preschoolers that would come every day at 1:00.

I've realized how much I like this job and I am able to express my love for books and share that with others here. I really like arts and music. It's my two favorite things and I will probably find something in between those two subjects to study from when I go to university.

I was working, fixing up one of the many book shelves from the immense library now. I was making sure every book was set in the correct place and that it was all neat when suddenly I had a clumsy moment and accidentally dropped one of the books. I quickly reached down for the book until a guys voice sounded and already picked up the book for me.

"Here you go."

I stood completely frozen at the guy in front of me. I didn't know how to react to him anymore and this is what I get. I purposely had avoided him and now it was time to face him now. It was time to face Zach.

"Thanks"

I quickly grabbed the book from him and turned my face and body away from him.

"You..work here now?"

"Yeah, I do."

I was being so ridiculous and disrespectful right now. The one guy who made me truly happy and I selfishly pushed him away. I placed the only book left to its place and faced Zach again and began to speak before he could. I felt my eyes get terribly watery and my heart wouldn't stop beating in such an intense pace.

"Zach, I'm so sorry! I'm such a horrible person! I shouldn't have avoided you like that! You really don't deserve that at all! You've been so good to me and I've been shit!"

I was basically shouting all of this to him and there were so many faces looking at me. I didn't care though. All the guilt was making me go insane. I wanted him back in my life again.

Zach quickly pulled me into a hug to shut me up and softly began to run his fingers through my hair.

"It's okay. Now shut up. You're going to get yourself fired and I'm pretty sure you don't want that." Zach whispers to me.

I felt him smile and I couldn't help but smile myself too. I pulled away from his hug and looked at him again. His eyes had turned from a dark greyish color to a beautiful emerald green color. His hair was messy and he had a gray sweater on with his tight black jeans.

"When does your shift end? Maybe I can take you out for dinner?, if you're not tired, you could be tired, sorry."

I found it really cute how he was acting so shy now and I was quite tired but I did not want to leave him again. I have him now and I refuse to let him disappear again.

"I'd be happy to go with you and I've already finished everything I had to do...I guess you can say you came in a right time."

Despite my sudden breakdown in front of him, I really am happy that he randomly showed up like this. I'm relieved that he forgave me so easily. I'm glad to have him back here with me. And most importantly, I'm real glad that he shut me up.

That boy can shut me up anytime.