* weird little mitsukou oneshots </3

fuzzy mind

* I don't think any cws r necessary :) maybe cw for panic attacks , hair pulling [he's pulling his own hair tho- so- does that even count] , idk just discomfort lol??? He's not gonna b comfy it's a panic attack

* summary: kou has a panic attack n mitsuba calms him down [literally just a comfort fic lmao]

* [ps this like. Is based on my hc of Kou being autistic. Panic attacks like these are different for every autistic person, these are just what mine r like personally :) ]
* [ps ps, I'm autistic myself, I'm not just. Randomly writing abt characters having autism lol-]

Kou squirmed, knees pressed hard against his chest, hands yanking hard at his hair, muffled noises of discomfort drawing out of his mouth. The knees and hands belonged to him. He prodded and pulled his orange hair until his scalp burned. The lights of the boys bathroom were blinding, the sound of his shoes kicking the walls of the bathroom stall when he twitched or trembled was echoing in his ears, threatening to burst his eardrums. His clothes stuck to his skin uncomfortably, his hands felt itchy and they had a gross texture. He was sweating. It made his hair wet and stick to his forehead. He hated how it felt, and he pulled his hair more. His noises were becoming harder to contain. He wanted to scream at the top of his lungs, express how uncomfortable he was. But he was in a public space, he had to be quiet. He twitched, his head smacking into the wall beside him. It hurt. He applied a little more pressure on his chest with his knees.
He let out a sob, shutting his eyes as tight as he could without it hurting his head.
A knock rang in his head, making him burry his head farther into his knees. His cheeks hurt. His teeth grinned against eachother.
"Kou?"
His fuzzy mind tried to process who was speaking. What was speaking. He couldn't, and so he couldn't respond. Instead he just let out a sob and shook more, his shoe smacking the wall and making his ears hurt.
His vision was spotted from clenching his eyes shut. It was scary. He couldn't see. He shut them again. He brought his knees harder into his chest. His bones seemed to rub against eachother awkwardly. He wanted to crawl out of his skin.
The door opened. He didn't want to question how. He didn't open his eyes. He heard it click shut, which pounded in his ears and made him scratch at his scalp as he collected a bigger handful of hair.
He felt cold hands touch his, making him flinch and tighten his grip on his hair.
"Shh- No- ___ okay, ___ __. Mitsu__. _____thing's ___y."
He couldn't make out any of that. He continued to fight the person trying to touch him. Now being distressed, he trembled more harshly, and his shoe smacked the wall, which rung and echoed in his eardrums, which throbbed and felt as if they'd pop. He stopped fighting.
The hands gently lead his hands away from his hair and held them.
Kou opened his eyes. His vision was spotty, which made him flinch, but he blinked it off. Eventually, he was able to make out a figure. Mitsuba. He was safe. His trembling slowed.
Kou twitched, and pushed himself into Mitsuba, hugging onto him tightly. Mitsuba didn't hesitate to hold him firmly.
Mitsuba's sweater was soft. It's texture felt nice. It was fluffy and warm. It eased his hands. His breathing slowed slightly.
"...Do you like my sweater's texture? Do you want me to give it to you for today or something?"
Kou shook his head, and slowly tried to make out words, "...No. I just like the texture of it. Give me a second."
"As long as you need."
Kou took a few deep, shaky breaths, prodding at the sweater. He wrapped himself around Mitsuba more, resting his head on his shoulder.
Mitsuba rubbed his back slowly, in sync with Kou's breathing. It satisfied Kou. He slowly calmed. Mitsuba was warm, but his hands were cold. It eased Kou a lot. He was perfect.
His limbs were tired. Kou couldn't prevent himself from drifting to sleep.
-
Warm. Kou opened his eyes, immediately being met with Mitsuba's sweater. He was cuddled up to Mitsuba's chest, the taller slowly playing with Kou's hair, that was currently sticking out all over the place, odd and strung out, due to bring pulled on. He seemed to be absentmindedly putting it back how it usually was.
Mitsuba noticed Kou and smiled, "Hello. Are you feeling better?"
Kou nodded. He felt drained. He didnt wanna talk right now. Mitsuba kissed his forehead sweetly.
Kou rubbed Mitsuba's sweater slightly in between his pointer and his thumb. It soothed him.
"Would you like to just skip the rest of the day?" Mitsuba whispered, careful not to hurt Kou's ears.
Oh. Yeah. Kou almost forgot he was at school.
"Do you want me to walk you home?"
No. Home is where Teru is. Or his parents. He didn't want to see them.
He frantically shook his head no.
"Alright. Do you want to go to my house then?"
Kou nodded. Mitsuba smiled and stood up, offering a hand to help Kou up. He took it and squeezed it tightly, not letting go when he was on his feet.
Mitsuba lead him home, both of them in a peaceful silence.
It didn't take long to reach Mitsuba's house, he lived close to the school. Which made him constantly being late super confusing, but that didn't matter.
"Okay, you wait out here, I just need to pop in and explain why you're here to my mom. I won't be long, and I promise ill come right back for you."
Kou smiled and nodded. Mitsuba smiled back and reluctantly separated their hands.
-
"Hey mom, i-"
"Mitsuba? Why are you home? I won't let you skip school." She huffed.
"Kou had a panic attack and didn't wanna go home." Mitsuba scowled.
She paused, "Oh. W-Well in that case, I'll allow it this time. But! I won't let you skip whenever you feel like it!!!"
"Ughhh I know Mom. Can I bring Kou inside now?"
"Yes, of course."
Mitsuba turned, before stopping, "...Oh, uh, he's nonverbal right now. Don't uh.... try to talk to him too much, alright?"
"Ah, alrighty!!! Thanks for telling me!!!" She smiled.
He smiled, and went to get Kou.
Kou was right where Mitsuba asked him to stay, and he was fine, other than looking a bit anxious. He brightened when he saw Mitsuba, though, and Mitsuba took his hand back in his and lead him inside, up into his room.
"Do you want me to put on a movie or something? A show?" Mitsuba asked, watching Kou flop down on his bed.
Kou sat up, nodding.
Mitsuba rolled his eyes and smiled, grabbing his remote off of his bedside and turning on something he knew Kou liked. He didn't wanna go through every single show and ask Kou yes or no to watching it, that'd be stressful and time consuming. 
He cuddled up into Kou's lap, yanking gently on his arms. Kou laughed slightly under his breath, and wrapped his arms around Mitsuba, settling his head into Mitsuba's shoulder.
It didn't take long for Kou to fall asleep, as Mitsuba expected. He was bound to still be exhausted.
Mitsuba smiled and paused the movie, leaning back into Kou's chest. He slowly joined Kou in sleep.
Skipping school is nice.
Especially when it's helping your lame ass boyfriend. <3