Alpha Ultima

Chapter 5

I burst out of the room, the door slamming loudly against the wall. I wince as everyone stops what they are doing and turns to look at me. I try to give a polite smile but from the look on Sam's face as he tries not to laugh, I know it looks more like a grimace.

Goddess, why am I always so awkward?

I hold my head high and walk as calmly as I can towards Sam who is leaning up against the wall with his arms folded over his chest. His damn shoulders are shaking from his silent laughter.

"Oh, shut up you. Let's go, we need to go talk to Quinn and Xander." I shake my head at him and rush past.

"You're just so full of grace, little miss. I just can't seem to take you anywhere." He chuckles as he steps up beside me to keep my pace and I slap him in the stomach lightly.

"Watch it, or I'll demote you." I warn.

"Oh yea? Is that so? And then what would you do? Take Cole everywhere with you? Or maybe Liam?" He raises his eyebrow at me and I physically shudder at the thought. "Yea, that's what I thought. I dare you to even try."

"Alright, alright. I call uncle. You win this one." I raise my hands in the air innocently and a softly giggle.

"Trust me, I know I won. You're stuck with me, little miss." He wraps an arm around my shoulder as we walk and I sigh in content.

Sam knows exactly what to do to calm me down and set me back on the right track. I can't wait for him to meet his mate, he is going to be such an amazing partner. Until that day arrives, I have to say that I will gladly take full advantage of his attention and comfort.

I'm grateful that the bond that I've built with Sam doesn't bother Xander or Quinn. I know that if someone was to ever physically cheat, the other would feel the betrayal rip through the mating bond. So while they know that our relationship is strictly platonic, it's not the most conventional relationship either.

Sam has slept in bed with me while the guys were off visiting other packs, he has seen me butt naked - though it was a complete accident and one that we will never speak of again - he's held me while I cried or was scared... truthfully we are very affectionate towards each other. From an outsider's perspective, we would appear like the perfect couple. The sibling connection we have is one I treasure completely.

Sam burrowed his way into my heart, and truthfully into the guys hearts as well. Neither of them were happy with the decision to integrate the Lycan's into our pack, and when I chose Sam as my Beta, it took a lot of... well let's say convincing on my part for them to allow it, and even then it was on a trial basis only.

Sam passed every trial and test my mates put him through, with flying colors. He is the most loyal man I have ever met and because of that, Quinn and Xander trust him with my life. I can honestly say, I don't think that they would feel the same way about any other member of our pack, their Beta's included, especially as an unmated male.

Truth be told, I can't say that if the roles were reversed, that I would be the most comfortable with either Quinn or Xander having a female friendship like mine and Sam's.

I know that makes me incredibly hypocritical, but I can't help it. I think it has to do with not having my wolf until a few years ago. It is something that I am still learning new things almost daily with, while they have never had anything different. They understand the bond and a wolf's way of life, while I was no more than a human before.

Both Lupin and I try to reign in the utter jealousy that floods through us when a she-wolf is too close to our mates - and by too close I mean within fifty feet - but the sly looks that Quinn and Xander throw my way, make it very clear it doesn't work very well. Lupin is absolutely no help with this as she throws images in my mind of ripping them limb from limb, or one of the worst ones was of Lupin biting this one particular she-wolfs boob completely off. It was quite embarrassing once we calmed down.

I'm brought out of my thoughts as we reach the stairs of the pack house. Sam takes his arm off my shoulders to open the door and ushers me inside. We are quiet during our walk, but it doesn't bother either of us. Our silence is in comfort.

I raise my hand and knock on the conference room door the moment we arrive, waiting patiently for approval to enter. I don't ever overstep my boundaries and barge in without notice. Not only would I feel like I have disrupted my mates in their work, but it would be disrespectful if it was a during a meeting. Any important meetings they always ensure I am apart of, so I don't feel the need to come between day to day workings.

"Come in, Little Wolf." Quinn's voice rumbles from behind closed doors.

Oh boy. He doesn't sound too happy.

I lift my hand to the lever and swing the door open slowly before peaking my head inside. I'm shocked to see so many people surrounding the large, solid, dark wood table. My eyes instantly find my mates at the head of the table. Cole and Liam sit stoically on either side of them as usual, but my eyes flick over the six other very large men whose eyes are all looking back at me.

"Oh... I'm really sorry to intrude. I can come back later." I stutter, my cheeks heating from embarrassment.

"Hello, Love. It's okay, we were actually just about to call you to the meeting, you appear to have very good timing." Xander chuckled, though it sounded strained.

"Your mate is right. Please, come sit with us." One of the males, an Alpha I assume by the power radiating off of him, says softly.

"We believe this may affect you too, Little wolf." Quinn looks at me with sympathy filled eyes.

What in the world?

"I... well... Okay. Sam?" I turn back to get his attention and he follows me into the room.

Cole moves so that I can take the seat next to Xander and Sam moves to the chair beside me. I quickly look between my mates and the men before me, but I cannot for the life of me gauge what is going on.

"I have a sneaky suspicion we are actually talking about something similar to what you came to discuss with us, Little Wolf. Why don't you tell us what you came here for, and then we can bring you to light in our discussion after that?" Quinn gives me a small smile and raises his hand to me to continue.

"Oh. Well, I mean. It is a bit personal and maybe it should be discussed between the three of us?" My cheeks heat once more and I take a deep breath to try and calm my racing heart.

"It's okay, Carter. I promise." Quinn mind-links me.

Well damn. He used my government name. Alright then.

"Excuse you. I don't know who the hell this Carter person is, but my name is babe or Little Wolf. Figure your shit out." I sassed him back through the link and he smirked slyly before giving his head a soft shake.

"Alright." I sighed heavily. "I just came back from the pack doctor. I'm really sorry I didn't speak with you about this, I know I should have, but I couldn't keep seeing the guilt in both of your eyes." I whisper and my eyes are locked on my hands clasped tightly in my lap.

"I have been going through testing to see why I am not getting pregnant. I wanted to know if something was wrong with me and that's why I haven't been able to give either of you a pup." I choke as my eyes start to water, even though Doc told me there's nothing wrong with us, the failure I feel burns thickly in the back of my throat.

"Thank you for telling us, Little Wolf. While Doc wouldn't say a word to us, we both had a feeling. Now to bring you into the conversation we were having. Something is wrong, and it's so much bigger than any of us." Quinn takes my hand and squeezes lightly.

Well, okay then.