Double Trouble: A Choice

Chapter 11 - I'm Sorry... I Love You.

-What the fuck is happening in here?! - Dark yelled as he slammed the door behind him.

Elliot stammered a bit and opened his mouth to explain, no sound came out. He felt embarassed, he knew that his relationship with Dark wasn't really a relationship and that they problably weren't exclusive but... it was still weird.

-Dark, don't yell, please. - Light asked, calmly.

Dark ignored him and walked over to the bed. He looked furious, Elliot thought that if he was a cartoon he would have smoke coming out of his ears.

-You fucking slut! - he growled to Elliot.

Light still tried to get in the middle of them to avoid the awful fight that was coming but Dark pushed him away harshly. Elliot flinched a bit, it had been a long while since he had seen Dark mad and it seemed worse this time.

-I-I... - the youngest man started.

-Shut the fuck up! What the fuck is wrong with you?! I thought you were different but you're just a fucking whore! Like all the others! - Dark interrupted.

-No! I-

Before Elliot could finish Dark grabbed him by the shoulders and pressed him on the closest wall.

-I said: Shut up! - he growled. - You just wanted to have your ass fucked, like all the others! But you're even worse because you messed with my feelings, asshole!

Elliot flinched. He could feel himself start trembling and his eyes burning. He had lived this before and he remembered like it was yesterday. He shutted his eyes and just waited, hoping that both, he and Dark, would calm down.

-Dark, stop! - he heard Light yelling, at the same time as he felt a hand on his neck. It wasn't making pressure at all, it just seemed to be keeping him still. Even if it wasn't hurting him he couldn't stop himself from trembling a bit.

He opened his eyes slightly and looked at the scene in front of him. He honestly couldn't believe it for a second. Dark had his hand up, made into a fist, ready to punch him. Light was holding his arm back (at least trying) and Dark basically had fire in his eyes. Elliot heard himself letting a pathetic whimper out and shutted his eyes again, placing his hands in front of his face to protect himself. When they closed completely the first thing he saw was his ex. The guy who had abused and mistreated him for months. He didn't want to compare Dark to his ex but...

He felt his cheeks getting wet with what he supposed to be his own tears and his whole body trembling. His heart was beating hard enough to jump out of his chest at any moment and his breathing was out of control. He knew this sensation way too well and he didn't miss it at all.

-Dark get off of him! - Light yelled as he pulled the goth man away.

Elliot opened his eyes slightly again and saw Dark and Light fighting. He heard words but he couldn't focus enough to recognize what they were. They were both mad, obviously yelling at each other but everything Elliot could hear was his heartbeat, breath and the unbearable peep sound on his ears. He tried to stop trembling, he tried to think of every trick he had been taught to control panic attacks but nothing was working. He couldn't focus on anything but the fear he was feeling right now. He hugged his knees and burried his face there trying to calm down.

After some seconds he heard a door slamming and felt a hand on his shoulder. He flinched away violently and opened his eyes wide. Even through the tears and trembles he could still recognize Light Adam's worried expression. Light or not he couldn't help to feel scared again. He wasn't afraid of Light, neither Dark but of all the sensations, all the memories. He just couldn't handle it right now. He stood up and ran into the bathroom, before locking the door.