☐⑉⃡ more || renkun

8.5

There was always something about him...

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The simple idea of a perfect person was never one I even dared to tease myself with.

Everyone was terribly flawed and that's all that ever stood out to me.

Either they were far too talkative or didn't talk nearly enough.

Maybe they were just too tall or made my neck hurt from staring down at them.

Or they were much too feisty but also didn't stand up for themselves enough.

One way or the other, something about them was heavily lacking, in a way that one bad thing made them unbearable.

I never expected to meet someone who's flaws I could look past.

But then I saw him.

I didn't know if it was my newfound adult hormones kicking in or the simple fact that he smiled at me unprovoked, I just knew he had me roped in.

A year younger then me, but legal.

I didn't know I had a type until I saw it.

Shorter then me, but not too short.

Feisty but soft seeming.

More on the feminine side, both face and body wise.

His cheeks puffed out and his lips just looked soft, he seemed innocent.

And he was, until I got ahold of him.

At the time I didn't feel bad about it, in fact I didn't even really like him.

He was easy and that's all I really cared about.

I didn't let him take his time, didn't even let him enjoy it all that much.

But now I want to punch, kick, ruin myself for what I did to him. He forgives me though.

And I think I love him for that.

Now all those weird fuzzy feelings I had have an explanation.

The feelings I got when I'd stare into his eyes, I avoided it becoming a habit because I never wanted him to know how much I liked it.

He was beautiful.

And I knew that from the second I saw him but I never admitted it.

I just hope he can find it in his equally as beautiful heart to let me make it up to him.

I sort of...see a future with him.

A relationship. An engagement. A marriage.

Hell, maybe even buying our dream home together and adopting a kid or two.

This is dangerous, I might be getting too attached. He might just flat out leave one day.

But still, I'll damn well try and give it a chance.

I love you Renjun. I hope you see that.

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psst- smut next chapter, I promise!