Butterflies Yelena X Reader

Chapter 24🦋

     Those words made me feel butterflies🦋

Yelena's POV:

Why do me and Y/N always smoke and then kiss and then fall asleep. This is like some weird ass ritual. Is it meant to be the same thing over and over? Honestly this is getting boring. 'And you wonder why your relationships never last.' My inner voice snapped. True that all my past relationships were less than three weeks. Plus me and Y/N aren't dating nobody put a label on it yet. 'Yet?' My inner voice questioned. I just ignored what my inner voice had to say it was merely irrelevant. It was already four AM and the rain was really heavy. Y/N was sleeping soundly on Sasha's bed. Her/his/their chest was going up and down, up and down. I tried to copy her/his/their breathing pattern and nearly died. Never again! I wanted to go to my dorm room I just hate staying out for too long. My insomnia had been getting progressively worse each night. And I'd be up all night with thoughts I didn't even want to think about. I quickly got up from sitting on the cold windowsill and left the room. I was going home in the pouring rain. Sasha and Niccolo were also fast asleep on the couch and cuddling. "Nice you two get to stay together forever." I muttered. Gosh that was harsh even for me. Well nothing is ever good in this retched world. 'You good there?' My inner voice asked. I was just having my early morning mood swings. At least it wasn't a random wave of sadness. I left the apartment and snagged an umbrella. I was totally not ruining this outfit. As much as I wanted to slam the door behind me I just left. I just took my bag and stormed off. Sometimes I'd just get angry for no reason. I even get angry at my parents for dying. I mean it's not fair. 'Life is never fair.' My inner voice said. That line was a line my father used to say and damn it pissed me off. But recently I understand it more. Sometimes I just want to run away and maybe just maybe I should. 'Yeah fuck this.' My inner voice shouted. I'm going to run away and just have some me time. 'Yeah we need me time!' My inner voice exclaimed. My aggressive walking turned into running down the street and nearly slipping. I was going to run away, because why not? Why not do something fun for me. 'Yeah we're always doing stuff for everyone who says we cant do stuff for us.' My inner voice said. In the moment I was just feeling angry and my inner voice was not in the right state of mind.
*Time-skip brought to you by Bertoto*
I was anxiously sitting on a train seat and fiddling with my thumbs. What in heavens Earth did I do? I totally just packed my bags and ran off to the other side of Marley and like the idiot I am I left my phone in my dorm. I felt kind of bad for Y/N and my friends who were probably worried about me. I mean I didn't intend to do this, but I might as well have some excitement in life. Well at least before everything goes down hill. I had a small suitcase and enough money to survive for the month. What was I going to do? 'You can always go back.' My inner voice stated. Yeah just some time for me. "Are you alright?" A stranger asked. I looked up with my bloodshot eyes and replied with. "I'm fine." I turned my head to the window and stared outside. The rain was pouring and dripping down the window. I'll see you later Y/N, I promise. The ride on the train was long and cold, but thank goodness I changed my outfit into something comfortable. Most of the train ride was spent with me sleeping or reading one of the books I brought along. "We will arrive at our last stop in fifteen minutes. Please gather all your personal belongings." A man's voice said over the speakers. I quickly packed away my books and sat upright on my seat. I looked at my watch which thankfully I brought along with me. It was 23:13 PM. I've been traveling all day which is weird, because everything passed by so quick. At least babies weren't on the train so I managed to get a good night's rest. I wonder how much a motel would cost and how long my stay will be. I'll phone Y/N and tell her/him/them that I'm fine. 'She/he/they will come looking for you.' My inner voice said. No Y/N wouldn't know where to look so it's okay. After planning what I'd do for my stay on the other half of Marley the train stopped at at a halt. "Thank you for traveling with us and we hope to see you in future." The man on the speaker said. I exited the train along with the large amounts of people leaving. Outside's rain was so heavy people were already getting soaked the moment they stepped out. Luckily I had Sasha's umbrella and warm clothes. This side of Marley was unexceptionally cold and glum from the side I'm usually on. I was hoping there would be motels near by and maybe a convenience store. In the station there were a few stores, but all were closed. Guess I'll have to wonder the streets for one. I hadn't eaten a thing since I left nor had I packed anything. I held my umbrella above my slightly wet blonde hair and my small black suitcase in my other hand trailing after me and getting wet in the rain. After walking around and nearly getting my jeans soaked I finally found a Seven Eleven. I quickly bought some drinks and sandwiches. Now to find a motel. Should I look for one or ask the cashier? 'Ask the cashier it will make your life easier.' My inner voice said sassily. I walked back into the store and asked the short young woman were I could find a motel. "Oh it's right around the corner and if you need anything else I'll be here tomorrow too." She said happily. She reminded me a lot of Pieck especially her hair and height. I'll see my friends soon I'm just taking a vacation. It would of been more fun if I invited them along. I walked along the rainy pavement and found the motel. It had neon glowing signs and it looked affordable.