It's not your fault

Failure

-Gon POV-

As soon as they started taking Off my jacket I knew what would happen. I kicked at them while my dad sat smugly in the corner. "D-dad help me." I cried hoping for sympathy. The only girl who wasn't participating was sitting by my dad uncomfortably. She whispered something to him but he just shrugged it off.

Finally the girls gave up after tearing my clothes. I ran down to my room and looked at the bag Killua kurapika and Leorio gave me. I pulled out a pair of clothes, they were Killuas. I slipped the new pair on and smiled. They had more of Killuas scent. I hid under the covers of my bed and went to sleep.

I woke up to a thunderstorm. I never liked being alone during storms. The thunder clapped as I shoved hands over my ears. I pulled out the phone I had found and started messaging Killua.

Green bean: are u awake
Cat boy: it's almost 2am but what do u need
Green green: well I ummm don't like being alone during storms
Cat boy: what are u hinting at
Green bean : uhhhhhh
Cat boy: do u think ur dad would notice me
Green bean: he's hanging out with others
With that Killua was offline and running to me. Instead of entering through the backdoor he crawled through the small basement window.

I was never so happy to see him. I reached out my arms like a toddler and was picked up by him. I cuddled deep into his chest and I received a fore head kiss from him. I fell asleep with my face buried in his shirt while he played with my longish hair. I clung to him like a koala as he lightly smiled at me. After the best moments of my life he had to go before we were caught. I really didn't want him to go. I wanted him to stay by side forever.

I sniffled, crying a little as he cupped my cheeks. He used his thumbs to wipe tears away and planted a small kiss on my cheek. He slid away leaving me alone. I pushed myself into the covers that Killua had gotten his scent on. This made me  feel less lonely. I remembered all the times me and Killua spent together. I just wish this nightmare was over. I tried not to cry as my injuries brushed on the blankets. Slowly I drifted off to sleep.

-Leorio POV-

Killua had gone somewhere again. This time he came back really happy. "Where'd ya go?" I asked curiously. "Oh just gons house." He said calmly. "Killua it is literally 3am what were you doing there?" I raised an eyebrow as I spoke. He giggled a little and showed a few texts to me. "We just cuddled for a little bit." He said happily. "He's just so cute." He squealed. I chuckled and patted his head. "Maybe you should go to sleep now." I added as he walked towards his room.

-kurapika POV-

I hadn't come out of my room since Killua tried to commit. I couldn't stand the thought that I pushed someone over the edge. I pushed someone who I love over the edge. I'm a failure.
My family's dead and the only other people I love are dying.

Killua probably Hates me now. I yelled at him for something he couldn't help with even though he tried. My door clicked open and I rolled to see who was approaching. It was Killua. I murmured something and flipped back around. I suddenly felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and pull me into a hug. After sitting like that for a few minutes he fell asleep nuzzled against me. He gave me a sense of security. Enough that I fell asleep.

-Gon POV-

I shattered another dish. I flinched as my dad got In my face and screamed at me. "Well are you going to fucking do another chore to make up for that?" He hissed. "N-no" I said unconsciously speaking. After 3 seconds I realized my mistake. "The fuck did you say to me?" He growled, kicking me backwards against the counter. My back slammed against the corner of the counter and I yelped pathetically.

He grabbed my shoulders and span me around so my face was towards the counter. I wiggled my hands around trying to fight back but, one hand swiftly grabbed both my wrists and pushes them against my lower back. His other hand gripped my hair. Quickly he pushed his hand down roughly, slamming my face against the counter. He kept doing this until I dropped my legs out from under me. He tripped and let me go. I just started running. I sprinted out my door as the ankle monitor started beeping. I saw my dad follow me. I ran to Leorios neighborhood. My head injuries and blood- clouded vision started to overwhelm me. I was running full speed through the street and one of my bare feet slipped out from under me.

I flew onto my stomach and face, skidded a few feet leaving behind a trail of blood. If I could just get a few more feet I could get to Leorios house. My dad neared me as I dragged myself along. I screeched as my legs were grabbed and yanked back. The sound alerted Killua, who appeared in the doorway of the nearby house. He saw me and ran towards us screaming for kurapika and Leorio.

They both flew out the door pausing to stare. In that time I was thrown over my dad's shoulder and he started running. He dodged through cars. I felt myself fall from his shoulders and hit hard against the asphalt. Then a car headed for me. I sat up unknowingly as someone tackled me out of the way. I clenched my eyes shut as we skidded across the floor. I opened my eyes and saw Killua.

His arms were wrapped around my neck and his face was buried in my chest. I winced as I was scooped away from him by my dad. He slammed my face onto the curb until my consciousness faded.

I woke up hoping to be with Killua. I cried as I realized I was back in my house. I was tied up, suspended from my wrists just too high so that I had to stand uncomfortably on my tip-toes. I wearily looked around and was smacked with a bat. I screamed while it repeatedly hit my stomach and legs. "Quiet the fuck down." My dad sneered "I'm teaching you not to run away from me." I noticed something new around my neck. A dog shock collar. I let out a scream louder then the last when I was hit. Following up to it I received an electrical shock on my neck. I squirmed in pain as the current flowed through my body. My dad came up behind me and unhook the restraints on my wrists, letting me fall to the floor.

I immediately scrambled down to my room, hoping not to get hurt. I pulled out the phone I found and started messaging Killua.
Green bean: hello?
Cat boy: OMG GON ARE U OK IM SORRY I COULDNT GET TO U
Green bean: I got a hell of a beating and a shock collar for that😅
Cat boy: we started plotting a rescue for u we saw the extents of ur injuries the last time so they're probably worse
Green bean: tysm Killua I love u so much
Cat boy: u idiot ur so embarrassing
I giggled as I turned away from my phone and began using my first aid kit to patch myself up.

While changing my blood and dirt soaked clothes I noticed the large burn marks, bruises, and wounds covering the entirety of my back down to my calves. I grabbed some food from the bag and shoved it deep under my bed to prevent it from being found.

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