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07

October 4th, 2 days later
Monday
12:00 pm

TW: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE

We were gonna go to a small area where fans were, they were gonna ask questions, so fans and interviewers would be there

We had our makeup done and had our outfits on, we went out on stage and introduced ourselves

We messed up a bit and Yeji and I almost said Eternity instead of Solar Eclipse, but we caught ourselves so we were okay

"Okay so fans, would you like to say some things?" The interview asked

"Thank you for helping me find my voice, you have made me really find myself by your music, I really want to thank you for that" a fan stood up

We all broke into smiles, I looked at Yeji kinda signaling her to talk

"I am glad, we um, we helped you find your voice" Yeji replied, she struggled a bit, but in the end she got it right

"Oh my god! we have a boy fan!" Sihyeon gasped

"What's your name?" I asked the boy who was sat in the third row

"Minhyuk, Kang Minhyuk" he replied

"Hiii! thank you for being here" I smiled, he seemed to have blushed because he hid his face in his hands

The girl next to him smiled as she looked at him and she pulled him into a side hug

"Ohhh, you guys know each other?" Minji asked the girl and the boy (Minhyuk)

They nodded, "Yeah he's my boyfriend" the girl told us

"Ohhh! okay well hello to you two" Minji smiled

I grabbed some things we would be giving out to fans, it was a fake rose, it was a signed box with a fake rose inside

My members and I basically designed it, we sketched how the rose would look like and then the company had another company make many of them

It was in its box but when you opened it this would be inside:

I got off the stage and personally handed it to them

"Thank you!" the two smiled as they slowly took the box from my hands

"No problem! thanks for supporting us" I said before going back on stage

"I LOVE YOU" fans yelled, we all smiled

We looked around for like 5 seconds waiting for the next person to ask a question until someone stood up, we focused our attention on the fan who had stood up on top of the chair

"Aela, why are you going from boy to boy? First it was Jake and now Sunghoon and some other dude? Who's next? Jungwon? I mean you are basically ruining their friendship." Someone scoffed

"You should kill yourself!" I heard someone yell, I looked down and blinked fast to prevent myself from crying

"Yeah, how about you kill yourself!" Another person yelled

Those same people kept telling me to leave the group, to kill myself, I don't deserve anything I have, just horrible things that no one should hear

"Let's get you girls going" Jiwoo walked on stage

"Meet and greet is over everyone, thanks for coming further details will be out later today." Jiwoo told the fans

I looked at the fans who were being rude and they looked shocked,

We got up and were escorted off stage

"Is it actually canceled?" I asked her, she nodded, I couldn't help but think this was all my fault

"But-"

Jiwoo cut me off, "Aela no, they were being disrespectful"

"Fans went out of their way to come see us though, we just wasted their time..." I mumbled

"Nope" jiwoo shook her head

"Can I at least go apologize?" I asked her she nodded so I went back on stage

"I'm sorry that we wasted your time and that the Q and A thingy had canceled, I was looking forward to doing this, but I'll keep trying to convince them to not cancel it, just wait a while Solars" I said before going back backstage

"Can't we just escort them out? Like it's ruined for the others now" I asked some staff

"Talk to Jiwoo" one of the camera staff told me, I nodded and then went to Jiwoo and repeated my phrase

"Okay, let me talk to the company, I'll see what they say" she said, I nodded and walked away

My members and I waited a little before we were told we wouldn't be able to go back out there

By the time we got the news we were kinda expecting the answer would be no and that it was canceled, since almost 30 minutes had past and we would have to get back on schedule soon

"C'mon let's get going" Jiyeon sighed while gathering all the members and then leaving the building

We got in the van and were taken back to the company to practice

The people's words kept replaying in my head

'Kill yourself!'

'Kill yourself!'

It kept repeating and repeating all over and I started to sweat and my chest tightened

"Hey um Ae? Are you okay?" Minji laid her head on my shoulder as we were waiting for the others to finish getting their makeup done and get ours on again since the sun/heat kinda ruined it

"Yeah, I'm fine" I smiled, but I wasn't, I wasn't okay at all, thoughts kept roaming my mind, I wondered if it would be good for me to just end it, if it would be better for the members