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So since debut we've been working on a performance for the end of the year award shows and today was the first one we'd be attending

Currently we were getting our hair and makeup done

We were all rushing since we were running out of time fairly quickly

Junseo was in the room next to us, it was gonna be his first award show and he was very nervous

We tried comforting him as we've been to one before but obviously we've gone as a group I can't imagine how nerve-wracking it must be to do that alone with just the other dancers

But we tried our best to give him good advice

But obviously our experience would be a bit different from his

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So we were now getting to our seats, walking past seniors made us nervous and we bowed excessively

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Sunghoon was up there mcing with the other 2 main mcs they were all males

"Personally I think if you break up two or more times then the relationship won't work out" One of the men, Daejung said and laughed

I felt really uncomfortable kind of knowing where this was going

"I agree." The other man, Byungho said, Sunghoon just awkwardly smiled

"You should give the advice to your fellow member" Daejung told Sunghoon

I pursed my lips and looked down for a bit then looked back up, the members looked at me and Sihyeon rubbed my back since she was to my left

I looked at Sihyeon and she whispered in my ear

"Don't listen to them, they just want attention"

I nodded and looked back over to the screen, it was focused on Enhypen

Jiyeon looked at all of us signaling us to get ready for the screen to be on us too

We each sat up better and I tried to act like it didn't phase me, keyword tried.

The screen did end up focusing on us and I was sitting in the middle of everyone so they had a clear shot of me

Once the screen focused back on the mcs I looked over to where Enhypen was sitting, Jake and I made eye contact

He looked really apologetic but I realized there were cameras and eyes everywhere so I just looked away

"There's many talented groups and soloist today, so lets start with one of the newer artist, Ive!" Sunghoon said reading from the script, the three guys then walked off and Ive's performance started

We clapped our hands as they were starting

As the performance went on you could see their passion, the stage presence and just how much effort they had put into perfecting this stage.

"Woah they are rookies but they're amazing" Sihyeon said smiling

"I know right" Yeji said agreeing

"I'm still thinking about earlier... I knew people wouldn't really like two idols dating but I didn't expect to get called out at an award show" I whispered to Sihyeon

"I know, people are so disrespectful. Don't give them the reaction you want, you did great earlier not paying attention and acting like you were fine and unfazed" she whispered and rubbed my back, I nodded

"Eventually idols dating will be a bit more normalized and this won't happen. This may be the first time this happens to you guys but probably not be the last, talk to Jake and make sure you're both okay with being public still, if not you can fake breakup and still be together in secret" Sihyeon continued

"Okay" I said slightly smiling

She always had great advice and really comforted us when we needed it

The awardshow felt long, longer than the last one we went to.

I feel like it's mostly because this time instead of only being focused on the groups and having fun, I was thinking about what had happened earlier with the mcs

I just wanted to be with Jake, he always calms me down and gets rid of my anxiety

I noticed my leg starting to bounce, "No this cannot happen right now" I thought to myself trying to calm myself down

"Aela you okay?" Eunji asked me, I nodded

She side hugged me since she was seated on my right,

My chest started to feel heavy and it started getting hard to breathe, i started to feel lightheaded and dizzy

Sihyeon and Eunji turned to look at me worriedly

"Okay, okay, breathe, in, out, in, out" Sihyeon guided me trying to calm me down but it wasn't working

Once Jiyeon noticed that all of our members were looking at me she looked around probably trying to get a managers attention

"Aela breathe please" Sihyeon said and again tried getting my breathing to calm down

"Okay guys please act like nothing happening okay, we're attracting attention by huddling around Aela" Chaeyoung said

All of the girls sat up again and pretended nothing was wrong

Eunji held my hand and carresed my hand with her thumb, Sihyeon was rubbing my thigh

I was slowly able to calm my breathing and then I was pretty okay

"Are you good now?" Eunji asked me, I nodded and smiled

"Yeah, I'm good." Eunji smiled and side hugged me for a bit

"Do you want to go home?" Chae asked me

"No it's okay, I'll stay"

"You know you don't have to Aela. It's okay if you want to leave" our leader assured me with worry in her eyes

"I promise I'll be okay." I lightly smiled to assure her

I looked around and Jake's eyes were fixated on me, I gave him a soft smile to assure him I was okay before turning forward to watch the rest of the performances.

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The rest of the performances went by like a breeze. They were all amazing! I saw so many of the groups that I loved, my entire group and I were hardcore fangirling when Exo and Twice did their stages.

"I want to relive Twice's stage!!" Yeji squealed as the awardshow was in intermission waiting for the mc's to go back on stage to dismiss everyone.

"Me too!! Their stage topped everyone else" Eunji says

After the mc's had dismissed everyone we followed our manager backstage and through the secret idol entrance and exit. We gathered our things and hauled into the company car in order to finally to home and rest for the rest of the night.

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I honestly don't know what to write about i think im having major writers block, sorry about the filler

There's only a little bit left of this book!

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6/19/2024
so sorry this took so long to upload! it's been so long since i last uploaded a chapter but ill try and get the rest of this out asap, it's gone on too long 😪