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⚠️Chapter two⚠️ Changes

Bakugo POV

When I arrived at school there's were flowers and a whole bunch of candles.  The class room was silent but when I stepped inside people stared to give me the eye. My friends were trying to justify what they said and did to the others in the class but no one seemed to be buying it.

"Look. It the main murderer." A random girl said pointing to me.

I just sat down in my chair. She was right after all he would still be here  smiling.  Even if he took his own life I  knew I was the one that pushed him to do it.

After school I walked to aunties house. I wanted to see if she was all right.  I knocked on the door and and few seconds later it opened revealing a red puffy eyed women. 

"Katsuki. Come in."

I nod before stepping inside. 

"What can I help you with."
"I just wanted to make sure you are alright and I want to help you. I need make it up to you."
"You have done nothing wrong."

Of course he never told her anything about what happened. She didn't know. And I wasn't going to let her find out from the school she needed to hear it from me.

"I need to tell you something please let me finish before you say anything. I know you will hate me but you need to hear it from me."

She nodded before taking a sit.

"When I found out Izuku was quirkless I was so prideful so I stated to bully him because I wanted to be better.  I had always been jealous of his life so I started to make it worst. Starting in middle school things got out of control and I and a couple of  friends started to physically bully him. Then I-I I told him to jump. I don't know why it just happened and I never wanted him I had just had a bad day and he was there it just lashed out and said it. Now he's gone and it's all my fucking fault."

Her eyes were wide and she looked at me with tears pouring down he cheeks.

"I knew Katsuki.  I always knew what was happening maybe not to the full extent but I knew for the most part. It is not your fault I-I agreed that after middle school if he still wanted to we would go and get doctor assisted suicide. I never wanted to agree but he was so unhappy so I cracked. I am happy that at least he got a nice view before hand and it was not a hospital room. Regardless on what you said that day it was going to happen."

I look at her on shock tears now streaming down my face.  He wanted to commitment suicide and it was still kinda my fault.

"Here. This is yours. Go home and take a reset."

I nod and take the box from her. I wanted home wondering what was inside. Maybe hate notes. Went I got home I put the box in my room. I needed to tell hag. She was going to find out one way or another so I might as well be the one who told her.

"Mom? I need to talk to you."
"Hah. HEY DID YOU HEAR THAT HE CALLED ME MOM."
"Mom. It's my fault I told him to jump."

She looked at me and said.

"I know Inko told me everything she knew. She always did. That's why I was always going over to their house. I knew about the doctor assisted suicide so I just wanted to be close to him. At least he's happy now."
" Why was I never told he wanted to commit suicide I could of helped."
"Izuku only thought goods thing about you. Now Inko gave you a box go open it."

I nod and walk up the stairs and enter my room. Plopping down on my bed I take off the lid of the box. On the top was letter labeled Kacchan. I carefully open the envelope and take out a pice of paper. I start to read it.

Kacchan,

If you are reading this that means I am dead. If not maybe I'll find this one day and we'll have a laugh about it. I want you to know it was never your fault and I would never hate you. Even if you bullied me that wasn't what pushed me. In April I was raped by a fellow classmate although I never knew who as they put a blindfold on me. When I got home from school that day I tried to commit suicide by having a drug overdose but my mother found me passed out in the bathroom and took me to the hospital. I told her everything and although it was hard she understood my choice. I know it was hard for  her as she didn't want to lose her only child but when I told her that I wanted to make a deal with her. We agreed although it took a while that if I still wanted to commit suicide after middle school ended she would allow me to do it with a doctors assistances. She never once called me selfish for wanting to commit suicide and if anything she said that she was selfish for trying to force me to live when I clearly did not want to.  I don't want my death to cause you to blame your self or anyone else it was my choice and this is what I want.  Work to be a hero. Be kind to people get into U. A. And make friends. Don't forget about me but move on and keep our memories close to your heart but make new ones.  Don't let my death change you. I want you to be able to look about on that day and say that it was not your fault. I want you to forgive yourself do it for me. Do it for your dream. 

- Izuku

Tears were pouring down my face. How could I have been so stupid I would have changed the outcome. FUCK.  I wish I could change the past then I could have my childhood friend in my life. That would be enough. (If I could spare his life. If I could trade his life for mine~🎶🎶. Okay okay I'll stop.) I was a horrible person but I would become a hero and I would start an organization that will stop suicidal people.  No one will be left like Izuku to deal with these things alone.

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Another chapter done and that took me fairly long time as I wanted to get chills. And boy did I get chills. I am so sad that the innocent bean is gone. Part of me really wants to bring him back but I can't do that. 

If you are ever having suicidal thoughts remember to get help. People care about you and your will get though this. 

Thank for for the 6 reads as of now

A/N signing off😔😔

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