i am a big fat raging homosexual

V1: i hate myself

hey yall. comin to you from chloes camper. it was her birthday so she decided to have me and another friend spend the night because were cool :)

so that was a month and a half ago. very important updates have happened. we havent hung out since then. what with my phone and all. but she went to a camp.

she met a girl at said camp. and she wont stop talking about her. :/ i wish i could be the one that she couldnt stop talking about. anyways she made a whole new group of friends there and not to be an asshole but i hope she never sees them again.

i dont like being jealous of my friends friends, but she puts them on such a high pedestal that i cant help but wish that she wouldnt talk about them.

im sorry for the rant. i have a lot of emotions about this. i think ive come to terms with the fact that everything that happened was just coincidental and she probably never liked me. :/

V1 still isnt over. as long as she continues to be my best friend and the person i stil fawn over then this will continue. i do hope maybe some day she'll eventually like me back, but one can dream. :/

anyways gonna go cry, adios :)