All eyes on her

Battles off the track

Christina Aguilera - Fighter

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh-oh-oh, yeah, yeah, yeah ohh

Never saw it coming
All of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in on a good thing
Before I realized your game
I heard you're goin' 'round playin' the victim now
But don't even begin feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

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A/N TW if you don't wanna read about cancer, mental health or battling with those things jump to the next chapter! *If you need help, please reach out to someone. Feel free to DM me if you have no one else to talk to*

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After some days and some check ups at the doctor we came to the conclusion that I need to have a masectomy. Dan was there by my side. At every appointment, every day and every night. He was there when I had an emotional breakdown, anxiety attacks, depressions and just wanted to cry. He was there by my side even on my worst days. We found ourselves a little farm in Australia and bought it. We build our own little fitness center at our backyard. I decided to shut down Social Media. But i need to get back in the game. Two weeks from now, I have to be in Brackley for the W12 presentation video. I need to get out to the public with it. I discussed with Daniel and the team. I don't even know how but I had an idea.

rubysmith I want to be true to you and to myself. I shut myself down from Social Media due to several reasons. Dan and I bought a little farm here in Straya. But that's not the news I wanted to break to you. I struggle with mental health problems for quite a time. My momma died due to suicide and unmedicated mental health problems. Several months ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I worked out with the doctors, my family and thankfully also with my team. I'm so happy to have you all in my life. I will have my masectomy tomorrow and then will join the team in England again. I'll keep you updated on my journey. BTW - this picture is showing me on my lowest point. if you need help, there are several people and institutions there for you. You don't have to go through it alone.
👥danielricciardo, mercedesamgf1

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Today is the day. Daniel brought me to the hospital. He wants to stay there. Poppy is with his parents. "You ready to kick cancers ass?" he smiled at me. "Born!" he made me smile. 

When we got at the reception they gave me my room. I was nervous. There are so many questions in my head. What if it doesn't work out? What if I have to end my career? What if my relationship to Daniel suffers from it? there are too many questions. I can't even think about it without getting wet eyes. I'm near a breakdown. I don't know what to do. I'm a mess. I know, I have friends, family and a team who support me, but they can't fight for me. I need to fight on my own. I had a healthy daughter which I could feed with my breasts. When I have another child I can't do the same. Will it change me and the relationship to the child? What will happen? Will the baby be healthy? So many questions and so many unanswered thoughts. 

"Baby you ok? You're crying" Daniel got me back to reality. I don't know what to answer. I just lean on his chest and cry. He pets my back and tries to be there for me. "Look at me. All will turn out good. You're a fighter. You got a title in a man's world. So you gonna win this battle too! We're all here for you. And within a second you're back in the car and win races! I'm so proud of you" he gave me a kiss on the forehead and hugged me tight. Behind us someone cleared his throat. It was a nurse. "Mrs. Smith, you need to get changed please. We're going to prepare you for the surgery." she smiled at me.

rubysmith So thanks for making me a fighter! #breastcancer #fighter