𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗥𝗘𝗚𝗥𝗘𝗧 ━━━ 이희승

45. don't know what to do

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Sunoo's POV

I sat on the couch inside the room as I stared at my sister who was laid down on the bed. The girl just stared at the ceiling not saying anything as I sighed. "Can you please take care of yourself properly?" I tried scolding her but she kept calm and still. The doctor checked up on her as he left the room leaving us alone again. My phone rang as I took it quickly. "How is she?" The sound of Lee Heeseung made its way from the caller ID. I bit my lips looking at her and proceeded to answer.

"She's fine now." I answer as Heeseung hyung breathed in relief. I pouted not knowing what to say anymore and it was quiet for a moment. "Is there any way I can talk to her?" He asked as I went completely clueless. I didn't know if I should let him talk to her or not. "Just let me hear her voice." He continued as I gave in to him and walked towards the girl. The girl was now sitting up playing with her fingers. "I'm going to go bring a cup of warm water for you." I said out placing my phone beside her as she slowly nodded.

Heeseung's POV

I hopefully kept the phone by my ears hoping to hear Seohyun's voice. I needed something to assure me that she's completely fine. But it was quiet for a long time as I almost gave up. The sound of small sniffle reached my ear as I barely heard it. That one small sound now got louder as I went silent hearing the girl cry from the other side. "Seohyun.." I said out knowing she probably wasn't able to hear me.

Kim Seohyun just sobbed very quietly and all I could hear was her sniffles before they got even louder. "I miss you mom.." She finally said something as I bit my lips finding my eyes to get watery. "I miss you so much mom." She cried as I bit my lips blinking a lot of times feeling internally bad for her. "I wish you were here with me. Then maybe my life would be better. Even if only a little bit." My heart hurt hearing the girl cry. I cut the call as a tear fell from my eyes.

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Seohyun's POV

It was about a week since I was discharged from the hospital. Sunoo had been staying with me so I was forced to eat without my consent. Which also meant, I was doing fine, health wise. But I had grown quieter than ever. I would barely find myself talking to my employees at all. Jungwon did all the talking while I prepared for the deals and presentations. I took off my glasses as I noticed it was around 12am at night. Sunoo wasn't home yet after he went to hang out with Jungwon.

I yawned walking towards my window as I noticed it was storming. The noise of thunder, something I was scared of, it didn't scare me anymore. I was numb. I couldn't feel anything. I was trying to act like I couldn't but in reality it was something else. I was just avoiding my feelings hoping for the best.

Heeseung was getting married in two days. No matter how much I wanted to go back and hug him, I held myself back knowing it was all for his own good. Walking towards the kitchen, I grabbed a glass of water as the bell rang. I guessed it was Sunoo and went to open it but it wasn't what I expected. The sight of Lee Heeseung in his sweatpants reached my eyes as I froze seeing him in front of my house.

"What are you doing here Heeseung?" I said out not being able to meet his eyes which looked painfully red. The guy stared at me for a while with his red eyes. "I wanted to meet you." He said out as I looked up at him not knowing what to say. Before I could do anything, Heeseung pulled me into a tight hug catching me off guard. "I missed you." He whispered hiding his face with my hair as I closed my eyes hugging him back. "Let's stay like this for a while." The guy said as I did what he said.

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We walked outside, down my small garden as none of us said anything. I sat on a bench as he sat beside me and it was all awkward again. I didn't know what to say and Heeseung didn't say anything either until now. "I'm getting married in two days." He said out as I breathed the cold air and nodded slowly. "I know." It was silent again until Lee Heeseung looked at me while I looked at everywhere but his eyes. "I still love you. I can't forget you Seohyun." He was putting me in a tough situation. I played with my fingers not looking up and stared at the grass.

Heeseung didn't receive any answer and he broke apart. I felt the guy cry beside me softly as I looked at him. "Heeseung.." I said out calmly as he looked down closing his eyes. "I don't want this. I want to be with you. Just please Seohyun." He cried out making me feel horrible as I held his hands. "Hey look at me." He looked at me as I wiped his tears away. "Crybaby." I said out as he frowned slightly making me chuckle.

After chuckling, I looked at him again as I caught him staring at me deeply. I stared back at him as none of us said anything. The guy looked down at my lips as he approached slowly. I couldn't do anything and closed my eyes as I felt Heeseung's lips on mine. I missed this feeling. He kissed me while I kissed him back, neither of us backing away. The guy caressed my cheeks deepening my kiss as I opened my eyes realizing what was happening.

I immediately pushed the guy away catching him off guard as he confusingly stared at me. "This is wrong." I said out standing up as I felt my hands tremble in fear. Heeseung stood up as well. "I want this Seohyun." He said out honestly as I bit my lips shaking my head. "You should go Heeseung." I said out both breaking my heart as well as Heeseung's as he stayed silent for a while.

"This was always wrong in your eyes Seohyun. You pushed me away so easily." He said out as I looked down without any answer. I just want the best for you Heeseung.. and at this point I didn't know what was the right thing for you. I was just lost. Before I could say anything Heeseung stomped out of my place as I felt my eyes water as I saw the guy leave.

"I'm so sorry.." I didn't know what to anymore. I really didn't know.

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I'm so sorry for the late updates :( I have a lot of work to do everyday and at the end of the day, I just don't have the strength to write ;-;