shattered|| taekook

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Dear Diary,

It's been two days since our encounter in bathroom. I had no classes today unlike Yoongi hyung, I was bored at the dorm so I decided to hear something on the radio which Jin hyung forcefully gave me cause he feared Namjoon hyung would break it.

I played it, I smiled when I heard Miley's voice. It was like a perfect timing--me missing you--and then a sad song in the background for music.

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight
I'm lost here in this moment
And time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

Ooh oh, I miss you
Ooh oh, I need you

I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder, everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

Well I try to live without you
The tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God I'm torn apart inside

I look up at the stars
Hoping you're doing the same
And somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say

Ooh oh, I miss you
Ooh oh, I need you

I felt few tears running down my cheeks but I still managed to sing with my eyes closed. I swallowed my chokes and sobs.

My voice hitched when I saw you standing there on the door, teary eyes and biting your lower lip so hard that I feared it would burst open and bleed.

You just stood there, eyes red, brows furrowed; a sobbing mess. Your grip was hard on the knob and your other hand was clenched. I wanted to ask if you witnessed everything. But my tongue did not corporate. "What are you doing here, Jeon?"

I didn't care about the waver in my voice.

You asked me if I meant what I sang, if my words were sincere. You walked towards me while I stepped back. "It's just a song," I replied.

You tried to touch my cheek but I backed away, not because I hated it. But because you weren't the Jungkook I fell in love with. The one who promised to never leave me. Never hurt me. You weren't mine, you belonged to Jimin.

I looked away not wanting to face your hurtful eyes, but you didn't like it. This time when you called me 'Tae', you had a stern voice. You then said something that shocked me, "I'm switching dorms."

Why now? Why when I was moving on? Why?

Everything in my brain was jumbled. The questions, the anger and the betrayal was fueling my soul. Your eyes were bored in mine, searching for something, you were waiting for my reply.

I didn't reply.

--1:36 a.m.

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Dear Diary,

I spoke to Yoongi hyung about it. And we decided something, I don't know but..I think it's right decision.

This used to be our dorm--Jungkook and Taehyung's. But now it belongs to--Yoongi and Taehyung.

After you asked to switch your dorm with Yoongi hyung, I spoke with Jimin and both of them agreed.

Now, you and Jimin will be staying in our dorm. And me and hyung in yours.

--1:47 a.m.

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-aura