today was june first, the official starting
day of pride month.
in the last four years, you and ashton had been in a relationship. the healthiest and happiest relationship the two of you had ever been in.
but, something felt different.
all of the other boys, luke, michael, and calum, had girlfriends as well. the more you spent time with them considering you were all girlfriends of 5sos, the weirder it felt.
over the past few days, you realized that you didn't not like the fact of being with a girl. infact, it didn't seem to bother you at all.
the way you got along with the girls, the bond you all had, to imaginations of other things if you weren't already with ashton.
but that's the issue. you were with ashton. and you absolutely adore him, and you still find him attractive and would never want to be
with someone else.
so why did you feel also attracted to girls all of a sudden as well?
your head started to rush as you suddenly felt confused. so you decided to pull out your computer and do some research.
"how to know if you're bisexual."
"hi darling. whatcha up to?" ashton said, walking in and closing the bedroom door.
you immediately got wide eyes and shut the screen of your laptop.
"oh! nothing, i was just coming downstairs actually-."
"you were? but weren't you just on your laptop?" he said while sitting down.
"yeah, i was. but not anymore. let's go!"
"hey, hey. why are you being so jittery? is something wrong?" ashton said, placing his hand on your thigh.
you chewed your bottom lip, desperately wanting to get out of this situation.
"y/n? are you okay?"
his gently spoken words was enough to make the threatening tears spill from your innocent eyes. you shoved your way into ashton's chest, so scared to lose him before this scary conversation starts.
"oh, my sweet girl, tell me. what's wrong? please?" he spoke into your soft hair.
"you're gonna hate me."
"hey now, where's this coming from? i would never hate you, i never could baby. please talk to me."
"do you promise?" you cried.
"i promise pretty. cmon, tell me what's going on." he said, sitting you up and wiping your tears, blowing cool air on your red tinted cheeks to calm you down.
you hiccuped before starting, "i don't know what's wrong with me ash, i- i don't feel normal."
"why wouldn't you feel normal darling?" he said, taking your hand in his as he smoothly rubbed his thumb across your fingers.
the question made you cry even harder, you went back into his chest and hid for fear life.
he didn't let you hide for long though, he picked you up and sat you on his thigh.
"deep breaths baby, it's okay. don't be afraid to talk to me." the older boy spoke.
when he didn't get a response, he picked up your pink laptop and opened the bright screen.
his eyes widened at the sight in front of him, making you anxious and start to move off of him to leave.
"my love, where are you going? is this something you were scared to talk to me about?" he said, referring to the laptop browser.
you shyly nod into your sleeve of his hoodie, walking back towards him.
he pulled you in for what seemed like the best hug you had ever received.
"if you think you're bi, and you have found yourself, then i am beyond proud of you angel. so incredibly proud, you have no idea." he said, placing a soft kiss onto your nose.
"really?"
"of course. i know you don't feel normal right now, but you're valid. so valid, and i don't love you any less what so ever."
you smiled and wrapped your arms around his neck, letting out a sigh of relief.
"so, are you bisexual darling?" he asked into your stressed out eyes.
"yeah. i am." you said, no hiding this time.
"that's my girl." ashton said, pulling you down beside him, whispering nothing but praise into your ears, leaving you a giggling mess.
"do you have a crush on a girl? or do you still want to continue our relationship? either way, i'm always gonna be here."
"no, no. i want to be yours still, and hopefully forever. i just had to tell you, it's been bothering me. i was so confused with myself and nervous that you would leave."
"oh baby, i'm sorry you ever had to worry to begin with. if anything, i love you even more than before. if that's even possible." he laughed, causing you to join in.
he smiled once more before kissing your lips, and sharing what seemed like the best outcome and night of your entire life.
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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH FROM UR FELLOW BISEXUAL!!! 🏳️🌈 💗💜💙
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go own ur sexuality, out or not, ur all so valid & loved. this month is all about u. i love u all, thank u for 1k reads!!!!!!
- arabella <3
