Its almost the end of 10th grade, and y/n, ray, Norman, and Emma, are excited for spending the summer together. they have all been best friends since 5th grade so why does y/ns heart skip a beat whenever they are around ray?
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(Before we start, a little bit of a TW. At the end, y/n is repeating themself and doesn't really being nice to themself. Intended feel for that part: y/n only really feels "comfortable" around ray, even though they all have been friends for a while. Y/n feels bad for "stopping ray from enjoying his summer" when they aren't.)
Time skip, 2 weeks into summer break
I wake up and check my phone. My clock says 11:00. I sigh, I did stay up pretty late. I decide to text ray.
Me Hey ray how are you
Bby ❤ ...
Bby ❤ Good hoe are you
Bby ❤ Omfg I meant how
Me Damn you callin me a hoe?
Bby ❤ You know what I meant
Me I know I know. I'm good. How was last night?
Bby ❤ Good. Moms out right now
Me Yeah, so is dad.
Bby ❤ added Norman Boi and Orange 🍊
Bby ❤ So I have to tell you guys something
Norman Boi Yeah?
Orange 🍊 What?
Bby ❤ In a week I'm going on vacation
Norman Boi Oh, thats nice
Orange 🍊 How long?
Bby ❤ A week and a half
Orange 🍊 So u will be back right before July 4th
Bby ❤ Yea
Norman Boi Where are you going?
Bby ❤ To this cabin like 2 hours away
2 hours? And let me think. That's gonna be. He's gonna be gone on my birthday.
(I'm just gonna make y'alls birthday my birthday so the 29th)
Being genuinely upset, I feel tears start to form and fall. But I choose not to say anything, I don't want to make him reel bad. Its not like he has much choice.
He should get to enjoy this.
Bby ❤ removed Norman Boi and Orange🍊
Bby ❤ You are quiet, is something wrong?
Me No, I'm happy for you.
Bby❤ What's wrong
Me Nothings wrong
Bby ❤ 👁👄👁
Me wat
Bby ❤ Take a picture of you right now I wanna see if u are alright
Me Wait no
Bby ❤ See something is wrong
Me Ok fine I'm sorry for like making this abt me but like u are gonna be gone on my birthday And I'm kinda sad that you are gonna miss it
Bby ❤ I'm so sorry, I can as mom if I can skip it, or if we can come back early
Me No pls don't do that I don't wanna ruin your vacation
Bby ❤ You don't ruin anything
Me Don't come back and don't skip
Bby ❤
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by ❤ Fine
Me Thanks tho ❤
Bby ❤ I'm gonna go eat, bye
Me Bye bye
I turn off my phone and place it beside me. I roll over so I'm on my back and stare at the ceiling. I wipe the tears, still left on my face.
This will be fine. I can just celebrate with dad, Norman, and Emma.
Yeah.
Tears start to form once again.
Yeah.
They start to fall.
Yeah.
I don't want him to leave.
Yeah.
I don't really feel alone anymore.
Yeah.
But I can't ruin this for him.
Yeah.
Keep repeating yourself.
Yeah.
Eventually, you will believe it.
Yeah.
But, I don't think that will work.
I know it not that big of a deal but,
I usually feel alone
Like I can't talk to the others.
But I can talk to ray
I feel comfortable around him.
I don't think I can do this.
Uhhh sorry for the dark turn, its kinda from personal experience so the thing with friends just spiraled into this. I needed to get this out and couldn't think of anything else to do. Anygays I finished my school year today so yeh. See u next time. ~bug 🐛
