Conundrum II | JENLISA | On-going

Not the Only One

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It would've been romantic. With the orange glow from the rising sun cascading behind Lisa in a soft glow, making a halo around her. The quietness of the place and their loud beating hearts.

It would've been- could have been since those words are uttered in movies to express the reason why; why the protagonists fell in love, why the other person returned to their childhood home, or... or why it was okay to fall in love with someone who you shouldn't but couldn't help not to.

Or it was the same words Lisa told me when I asked her why she was smiling so widely despite looking at the documentary about capybaras. The mammals were cute despite Lisa telling me they looked like a hybrid of a pig and something else and yet...

Yet she was looking at them like those furry animals hung the stars in the sky for her and gave her a beacon of hope when all else is dark.

"Why are you grinning like an idiot?" I asked her while stuffing her mouth with yellow jellies. Her cheeks were puffed and she tried to bite my fingers when she leaned back on the couch. Her arms that were circled on my waist made me fall with her. It hurt a little bit- falling, but since she was there behind me, it was bearable.

Lisa made everything bearable.

"Is it wrong?" She asked after she swallowed the gummies. She tightened her hold on me and rested her head on my shoulder. "Is it wrong to smile when you're here with me?"

I popped a jelly in my mouth before humming, ignoring the thrumming of my heart and the way her breath fanned the side of my face. "It is when you just insulted the cutest animal I have seen aside from Kuma and Kai."

She scoffed a little when she heard the other name of my dog. It earned a giggle from me and poked her cheek with my thumb. "And now you're scowling. Wow, Lili. Is it your time of the month?"

She scowled more before burrying her face at the junction of my neck and shoulders, tickling me a little bit when she shook her head, "Noooo!"

I bit my lips to stop a giggle from erupting when she left small kisses on the expanse of my skin. "Then what is it? Why are you so moody?"

"Because of you." She murmured then looked up, her eyes warm and so... so pretty. She smiled softly before placing a soft kiss on my temple, making me flush and my heart did just backflips inside my ribcage. "Because you make me happy."

I make her happy.

I blinked and the scene in my mind disappeared. I'm back inside the kitchen, tears threatening to fall.

And now she's scared because of me?

Because of you.

I blinked the flashback and the tears away. The words kept repeating inside my head, like a broken record replaying over and over inside until it's ingrained in my memory. It grated and it pounded and squeezed. I could hear my heartbeat in my ears, and my heart in my throat.

Lisa just stated the reason why. And I don't know if I wanted to know more- on what I did do wrong for her to feel like that.

To say I was stunned and very very hurt would be an understatement. I watched her watch me and we both didn't utter anything, save for Lisa's heavy breathing and... I think I wasn't breathing at all.