Things felt.... weird, it's an odd way to put it but I didn't know how else to describe it, it felt like what happened nights ago was a dream, I honestly didn't know if I liked it, he was nicer but the mind games were fucking killing me.
Was he genuine?
Did he really care about us?
I didn't want to dwell on it much, enjoy while it lasted, I mean that would be a great idea, Affection with him felt odd, I was used to him forcefully getting away with everything, his gentle caresses and how he actually cuddled me or gave little hugs here and there was just driving me crazy, it felt good but at the same time, I didn't like it, it was like he would snap at any moment and I was walking on thin ice, I didn't want to think negative thoughts, I wanted to give him a chance, to maybe I don't know, love me?
"Hey"
Shivers went through my body but for the first time in awhile, the fear that usually came whenever I heard his voice was just replaced with nervousness, this new him confused me and I hate to say it but I was scared, what if it was a game, what if he just needed to break me more, he did say he didn't enjoy me rebelling, what if all I said meant nothing to him.
"Why is it that each time I speak to you, I always lose you to those little thoughts you always have, it's like your mind runs miles each time I say a word to you"
He was right, but can you blame me, I was being mind fucked here, well I think I am, either way, I had to be careful with him, his unpredictability was what made him so deadly.
"I don't do that, I just like to think"
"Why do you feel the need to do that"
I wonder why, I fucking wonder why.
"Get dressed, we're going out with Caleb and Alex"
"I literally just realized that I have no idea where we are"
He let out a chuckle and I guess he must have seen the look on my face because he just awkwardly coughed, weird, he was never awkward, see what I was saying, I don't understand what is going on here and it's freaking me out.
"It's an island, I decided to buy it and make it my own little well you could say world"
"What a waste of money"
My eyes widened in shock, that was truly the first time I spoke to him without actually thinking through it at least twice, well when I wasn't mad at him.
"I'm sorry, I just blurted it out without thinking"
"Yeah that's definitely true"
"Don't worry I'm not mad or anything, I'm just happy you're relaxed around me"
What the fuck is he talking about, relaxed? What happened to total submission.
"That's rich"
"That I am kitten"
"Okay since we're saying stuff we mean, I don't like being called kitten"
"Well too bad, I like calling you kitten"
"What happened to-"
"Every couple teases each other, so this is perfectly normal"
Was I tripping, I don't get it.
"So about getting dressed, can we just stay in bed"
I walked closer to him, I hated going out, everything I needed was right with me so what was the use,
"Let's just stay home and have some fun, just the two of us"
"Sounds tempting but you have to do better than that"
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