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CHAPTER 7//n|e

Snaking his arms around my body, making me shiver involuntarily, I didn't like that, he made me feel good and I hated myself for submitting to him so easily, he was drunk, meaning he would be vulnerable but he was also not in control of his emotions, he was acting based on pure instincts and that scared me more than any other thing.

I stayed stiff trying to even out my breathing hoping he would just stop his roaming hands and go away, it didn't work though. He pressed myself closer to him and I could feel him hardening, he lowered my panties making me whimper involuntarily, I didn't want this, I made a move to shove him away from me but he was quicker, even though he was intoxicated, he was still stronger than me in so many ways, his arms held me by my neck, giving me a silent warning, he was definitely going to choke me if I resisted any longer, I started tearing up, I didn't want him to know I was crying, showing how much of a weakling I am.

He turned my head towards his brown eyes, they were not cold, he slipped down and licked a stray tear off my cheek.

"You taste divine little kitten" his gruff voice cut through the silence.

"My tears are not tasty Lewis" I scoffed

"I disagree"

"What do you want" I snapped without thinking, my eyes widened in horror at what I had just done, his grip around my neck tightened and I knew then and there and I had truly pissed him off, successfully signing my death.

In one swift move, he threw me off the bed, I landed roughly on the ground with a pained cry, I had really done it his time, he was really angry, coupled with his heavy breathing that sounded like pants, I knew this was going to be another hell of a night. 

He stalked towards me, taking predatory steps that had me shaking in my spot, I was finding it really hard to breathe, my head felt like it was having a siren party, the theme being which one would blare the loudest, I used my hands to hold my ears and I began rocking to calm myself down, it won't do me any good to black out right now, if I did, he would get angrier and that wouldn't be good for me, I tried to calm myself down, having a panic attack would not benefit me.

I met his hard stare, he walked slowly towards me with clenched fists at his side, I was literally paralyzed by fear, I didn't want to piss him off anymore, I just had to do as he said and I would be alright, right now, I was only hurting myself.

I clenched my fists tightly, awaiting my sealed fate, I knew pain was close and the person that would inflict it was even closer, the joke of a ring on my left finger felt cold against my exposed skin, the truth was, I hated the diamonds that adorned the ring, it didn't make any sense, why was something that seemed so expensive, so close to my touch, yet I truly felt that it had no meaning, the person who had placed it on my finger didn't see our marriage as nothing but a burden, I let the tears stream down my face, I didn't know that hurting was this exhausting, my head was hurting so much just from continuous crying.

He roughly grabbed the back of my hair, his cold eyes staring into mine, I didn't dare keep his gaze, I didn't need to make him angrier so I quickly brought my head down, some thing I  knew would please him.

My submission.

He yanked my hair again, I knew he purposely made it long, it was easier to control my head like a freaking television, I wanted so desperately to cut it, that wasn't even an option that could be presented to him, he kept continuously grabbing my hair making my headache hurt so much worse, the pounding in my head sucked, it wasn't helping that I was seriously feeling drowsy, another fainting spell seemed around the corner, it wasn't a good sign, not a good sign at all, black dots were appearing in my vision, continually going back and forth, I wasn't in the least bit anxious, I was terrified, if I was conscious and he still did all those horrific things, what would he do when I wasn't even awake, me passing out during sex didn't stop him, so what exactly would make him stop when I passed out from his beatings.