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CHAPTER 6//n|e

It felt good not to be awake, to be dreaming, at least I was in control of my own emotions, my whole body felt like lead and trying to open my eyes seemed futile, my whole body was in agony and I just wanted every single pain that I was feeling right now to stop.

I want to be a new born baby again, that's the only period in my life I feel like I was truly happy, I was oblivious to things around me and I was content, growing up sucked, I don't know why it was hyped so much, I hated growing up, because phases of my life only brought me pain, my early years of schooling wasn't so trash, I can't believe I was ever excited for high school, I hated that place, filled with humans that were lost at life, well most of them, the others knew what they wanted but were not content at the same time, did we actually know what we want or we're just trying to blend in to make it through this gruesome thing we call life, I just needed it to stop, for everything to just stop, I knew deep down that if I die, my husband wouldn't even bat an eyelash but I wanted him to, I needed him to give me some acknowledgment, his approval meant everything and his affection is my life, he didn't need to know that though, if he knew he had value, he'd make sure he hurt me much more. 

The pounding in my head returned, it felt like needles were being put into my head one by one, in the faint distance I could hear a beeping sound, gosh, why was it suddenly so loud in here, I wanted everything to just stop making so mush noise, the beeping got increasingly annoying and there was a loud thumping that followed it, I could feel my body again, I felt pain slowly start to spread through me.

Why did everything hurt so much all of a sudden?

I tried opening my eyes but they weren't cooperating, after couple of tries, I got them to open but I was forced to shut them back due to the force of brightness that hit me all at once, I almost shouted out in both annoyance and pain but I also couldn't, this was getting really frustrating, I tried opening my eyes again, this time it didn't hurt as much as it did the first time.

Although it was quite bright, I squinted my eyes really hard to reduce the amount of light that could come into my eyes, I slowly opened my eyes wider, I was in our bedroom but I could see that I was hooked up to different machines, at the foot of the bed I saw Lewis typing away on his phone, his hair was in its usual beautiful waves, and the sunlight made his usually cold eyes look warm, he was shirtless and I had to admit, it was really distracting.

"So you're finally awake?" he broke the silence with his gruff voice, he didn't even look my way, it made my heart start pounding faster.

He seemed to notice, he looked at the heart monitor then he looked at me, a smirk shadowing his lips, he knew that he scared me and his sick mind truly enjoyed causing such terror in my body.

"I'm not going to hurt you, so stop fretting, I don't need the nurse thinking I did something to you"

He stood and stretched his body, the sweatpants he was wearing went lower and I could see his sinful v line, he was built, his body movements had the grace of a swimmer's body, I don't know how well to put it but I think this was the best I could do, he walked slowly towards me, his thumbs gripped the hemline of his pants, with one swift tug, he was naked in front of me, he wasn't going to ask me to give him a blow job was he?

He used his legs to pull them off completely, he bent down and picked it off the floor, folding it neatly, he dropped it at the foot of the bed, taking firm steps towards me that had my heart beating so fast, I thought it would jump out, the machines were going crazy, I heard hurried footsteps coming to the room, probably the nurse.