I walked into Hardy’s house just a few minutes ago. He put on his dark sweatshirt and a coat.
“What do you want to eat?” he asked
“I don’t know why, but I want fish and chips.” I smiled and I imagined the taste of delicious fish and chips.
“Ok. I’ll buy it. Take a seat, Miller.”
He’s so kind for me today. And I like it.
He came back in few minutes with two big portions of fish and chips from my favourite shop. He put it on the table and he brought two glasses of water. We sat on chairs and we was silent for about five minutes.
“I acted horribly yesterday. I’m so sorry, Miller. I didn’t want to frighten you, but I wanted to tell it a long time ago.” Said Alec... Sorry, Hardy
“Oh. Actually, I wanted to apologize to you. I don’t know why I reacted like that.”
“It’s alright, Miller.”
“I was terrified, because I probably love you too.”
“I wanted to tell it to you, when you told me, that you’re pregnant.” He said and he ate a bit of fish
“Yeah, I understand you.”
“Did you make a decision about the baby?” said Alec and I smiled
“No... I was sure, before a talked to Lucy and you. But you made me confused.” I glanced into Alec’s deep, chocolate eyes that always fascinated me so much.
“I really want the wee baby. I’ll take a care of you and your boys, I promise.”
“I really don’t know, Hardy. And what if you will have a heart attack and I’ll stay alone with three children?”
“I’ll have the surgery. But please, keep the baby.” Said Hardy and he looked a little bit desperate.
“Ok, I will think about it.” I said and I winked to Hardy
“I really like you, Ellie.” Said Hardy and I looked very surprised. Did he just call me Ellie?
“I’m sorry, Miller.”
“But it doesn’t bother me.”
“Really? When I called you Ellie last time, you told me not to.”
“But I don’t care now.”
Suddenly, Alec fell on the ground. His face was full of pain. I knew, what’s going on.
“Where are your pills?” But I saw them immediately. They were on the sofa. I picked two and I put them in Alec’s mouth. I gave him water too.
“Everything’s going to be alright. Just breathe, please!!”
I phoned an emergency, one minute after. I can’t let him die. Not here, not now. The emergency came soon. Thanks God! They picked Alec and they drove to hospital. I sat in my car and drove to hospital too. But Lucy phoned me, that she is leaving and I have to pick Fred from her. So I let Hardy for doctors and I drove to Lucy’s.
“Hi, mummy.” Said Tom and Fred, when I opened the door of Lucy’s house.
“Hi, Ell.” Said Lucy
Boys went to put on some clothes and Tom took Fred to car.
“How are you?” asked Lucy
“Hardy’s in hospital. I don’t know, if he’s still alive. I’m scared.”
“I’m so sorry, Ellie.”
I’m glad that Tom is going with us this time and he will help me with Fred.
At home, I let the boys play and I went to my bedroom, because I wanted to cry. I lay down on the bed and I started to cry to a pillow. I felt so lonely. I probably haven’t got Hardy either. I hoped that I will go to the hospital tomorrow. There were many thoughts in my mind. But thought about Hardy’s death was the worst. I worry about him. I really want to hate him like I did before, but I can’t. There are a lot of memories with him.
Maybe I cried too loud, because Tom came to my bedroom. He looked very worriedly.
“Mum! What’s going on?” he asked
“Nothing. Go play with Fred.” I told him with a weeping face.
“Don’t lie to me, mum. Why are you crying?” asked Tom and he sat next to me.
“I don’t want you to bother with it, sweetheart.”
“Mum, tell me. Is it because I don’t want to live with you?”
“Yes, but there are another problems and many of them are bigger than this.”
“Tell me.”
“Not now, Tom. Maybe next time.” But I got a great idea. “Tom, can you take care about Fred for one hour?”
“Yes, sure.”
“Thank you. I need to do... something.” I said and I went to bathroom to wash my face. I said goodbye to boys and I sat in the car.
I drove so fast to the hospital. I had to see Alec. Way to the hospital seemed infinite. Standing on the traffic light was killing me. Insecurity is the worst feeling of all feelings. Alright. The worst will be, when the doctors will tell me, that Alec is dead. Yes, I’m not an optimistic person, but what would you do, if this happened to you? Finally, I was near the hospital. I left the car and I ran the whole way into hospital. When I ran to reception, I was breathless.
“What do you want, miss?” she asked kindly
“I’m looking for Alec Hardy.”I was waiting for answer. The receptionist wrote something into computer and she looked at me.
“The third floor, room 302.”
“Thank you so much.” I said. I ran out the stairs. I wasn't sure if I want to open the door, or not. I don’t want to see his dead body!
But I opened the door.
