FOURTH CHAPTER
After a walk, we went to my house. Fred fell asleep in his bed and I made some sandwiches for a dinner. Hardy and I sat around table. He sat next to me and he caressed my hair.
“I worry about you, Miller.”
“You don’t have reason, why you should worry.”
“Did you tell someone about the pregnancy?”
“Only Lucy.” I said and I bit in my sandwich.
“What is her opinion?”
“She didn’t say much about it.”
“I’ll have the operation.” Said Hardy
“Don’t do this because of me.” I felt guilty.
“I won’t do it only because of you. I wanted to do this for a long time.” Said Hardy, but I know, he will go there only because of my pregnancy.
“No, seriously. I don’t want you to die. Broadchurch needs you, I need you.”
“I wrote a well, if something happened.” Said Hardy
“Bloody hell. You are worried, Hardy.” Hardy nodded.
“I haven’t got anything to live for, anyway.”
“Hardy, you will be a daddy. You can’t just die. Everything’s going to be alright.”
I sat closer to Hardy. I didn’t have to have eyes to see tears in Hardy’s deep brown eyes.
ALEC
If Miller didn’t say, that she likes me, everything would be much easier. I would die without guilt that I’ll leave Miller alone.
A gentle, soft touch woke me from my thoughts. Now I know that Miller is definitely an angel.
“Don’t you dare to die, Hardy.” She winked at me
I washed the dishes and I walked to Miller, which was sitting with Fred on the sofa. When I sat next to them, Fred sat next to me.
“Hi, uncle Alec.” He said. It wasn’t very understandable, but we understood. Miller started to giggle. I joined her.
“Hi, wee Fred.” He smiled. He’s very cute creature.
“Don’t you mind, that he call you like this?”
“No, it’s very cute.” Fred sat on my thighs. He started to babble something.
We sat here for a while and then I went to my bedroom. I put my pills on bedside table. I’ll probably need them. I started to charge my phone and I set alarm, because I want to make breakfast tomorrow. Then I poured some water in my glass and I left it on the bedside table too. I wanted to clean myself, but Miller was in the bathroom. I don’t know what women are doing in bathroom for such a long time!
Miller opened the door after fifteen minutes. She stood there. The moment of awkward silence. I hate it.
“You have nice pyjamas, Miller.” I said to stop the silence.
“Thank you.” She blushed.
“Are you going to shout from sleep?”
“And you? Stop it; I don’t do it on purpose.”
“I’m sorry, Miller.” I went to bathroom. I had a shower. I wore my grey T-shirt and some sweatpants and I cleaned my teeth.
When I left bathroom, there was light turned off in Miller’s bedroom.
I went to my room. I turned the light off and I lay in my bed. I’m scared of getting asleep because my nightmares.
I worried about Miller. I would like to know, what goes on in her head, sometimes.
I probably fell asleep, but some scream woke me. I knew what’s going on immediately. I ran out of my bedroom to Miller’s bedroom.
“Let me be, Joe! Please! Nooo!” Shouted Miller, and her face was full of tears. He also saw a big wet stain on her pillow. I sat on the edge of her bed and I started to calm down her.
“Shhhh. Ellie, It’s only some dream. Everything is alright. Joe isn’t here.” I told her and I touched her beautiful curly hair softly. She opened her pretty hazel eyes, which were full of tears at the moment. I gave her a tissue and I put away some forelock, which was in her eye.
“Do you know why I worry about you, now?” I asked and I gave Ellie another tissue.
“It’s alright.” Said Ellie, but I knew she lied.
“Ellie, you should talk with some psychologist.” I touched Ellie’s back.
“Seriously, I’m alright.” Ellie turned her pillow upside down and she lay on it.
“Ellie, confide to me with everything. I’ll be trying to help you.”
“Go to sleep Hardy. You don’t know what you are talking about.” She turned her back to me.
“I love you Ellie. And I want to help you.” I said worriedly.
“Go away, Hardy. I don’t want to confide to someone.” Said Ellie vigorously, so I rather went to my bedroom. I lay on my bed and I started to watch ceiling. Ellie hurt me. I know that she probably didn’t want to hurt me, but she did. She was so nice to me in the evening and now this? I’m so confused.
