Edit That Bit Out

Chapter Five

Phil's POV

When I awoke I contemplated talking to Dan and explaining my idea to him for even longer in my bed. After a while I went into the kitchen and made myself a cup of coffee and then sat down in the lounge. I decided to watch a movie to take my mind off of everything. I got up and searched through our DVDs before deciding on Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. About an hour into the movie I heard footsteps in the hallway and saw Dan walk into the kitchen. My heart leaped at the sight of him but then it sunk when I remembered that he wasn't talking to me. Maybe he would talk to me if I tried talking to him first. He emerged from the kitchen holding a mug. I took a breath before saying a simple "Hey." to him. He looked at me and hesitated before saying it back.

"Do you maybe want to watch the rest of this with me?", I asked him cautiously. He looked at the TV and then at me. "Sure.", he mumbled. He made his way over to the sofa and sat on the opposite side as me.

We sat in an uncomfortable silence for a while before I finally decided to say something.

"So...," I started, "how have you been?" it wasn't the best conversation starter but it was something. He looked at me and sighed, "Okay I suppose. What about you?" "Alright."

It went back to the uncomfortable awkward silence.

I should tell him. I should apologize again. I should fix this. All of it. My thoughts flood my mind and I've completely stopped paying attention to the movie. This defeats the purpose of putting it on the first place.

I look down at my now empty mug then at Dan who was staring at the TV as if he too were thinking very hard about something. He turned to me as if to say something but then quickly turned back toward the TV. "Dan," I started, "can we just try and get over this? We can fix it. I've been thin-" "I don't know.", he cut me off, "You knew I wasn't ready for everyone to know. And I know you didn't want everyone to know yet. I just don't understand how you could have been so careless." I felt myself go red and at this point I was trying not to scream. Or cry. Or both. "It was a mistake! You've made mistakes before! So has everyone else on the planet!"
"You know, Phil. You're right. I have made mistakes before. This was a mistake." And with that he stormed off. A mix of anger and sadness consumed me and hot tears streamed down my face.
Did...did he just break up with me? Or was he just really mad.
I ran off to my room and threw myself onto my bed. I screamed into my pillow. I messed up. But I could fix it. If Dan would only listen to me. I slowly drifted off to sleep. The last thing I thought of before sleep took me was how badly I wanted, no. Needed. To fix this.