𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑮𝒐𝒅 𝑶𝒇 𝑴𝒊𝒔𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒆𝒇

A Different Side

Everything seemed so different now, Loki was being told what to do through higher orders and I couldn't do anything about it. I could see how broken he was, the guilt, pain and hurt he had experienced through his life it seemed like everything was catching up with him. All I could see was a boy who wanted to prove to his father that he could also be a king.

Looking deeper into Loki's eyes I could tell that the hurt was buried deep into his veins. He was like a bottle of pop ready to explode at any moment. I just wanted to know why he was protecting me.

After looking over all the time I had spent with Loki I thought everything would be fine. I know deep down in my heart that Myles and Shadow were safe and well. Loki just didn't want me to worry and he wanted me to focus, which I understood. I think Loki wanted to protect me because he didn't want to admit his feelings. What better way for him to have me without me thinking of Myles.

Eventually learning about my past and childhood I could finally start understanding Loki a lot better. Loki always saw Thor in the spot light and it was as if Loki never got to see that spot light. I think deep down in his heart he loves Thor more then anyone but he also has a lot of anger towards him and Odin.

Being so young I didn't understand why my father wasn't around. Now after hearing Loki explain things a bit better it all began to make sense. My father was fighting battles, protecting the "realms". The only person I remember being there for me was my mother. I'll never forget her, she was my rock and stood by me through everything she was the one who taught me to embrace my power, although she wasn't overly fond of me being immortal I guess she just wanted me to have a normal life, as she could see how much pain it caused my father. "I missed them both so much" I said softly to myself.

"Are you okay?" Loki asked me
I looked up at him and the tears left my eyes "No" I sobbed.
"What's wrong?" He asked as he sat next to me
"I can't stop thinking, I miss my parents...I just want to go home" I said burying my head in my hands
"I know your pain all too well" Loki spoke pausing for a second "but look up" he replied lifting his head up towards the sky.

I lifted my head out of my hands and looked at him before looking up towards the sky. The stars were so bright and pretty, a small smile crept across my face. Even though my mother and father were gone I knew they both watched over me.

"Of course Thor and I don't get on but it's just sibling rivalry but I'll always love him" he smiled
I couldn't hold the question back any longer I had to say it. "Loki, are Myles and Shadow still alive?" I asked hesitantly.

Loki looked down at the ground and took a deep breath in. I could see he was trying to find the right words.

"Yes...they are still alive, I kept it hidden because I needed to protect you" he quietly spoke
"So you've been lying to me?" I questioned him. I wasn't even angry with him, I was just confused.
"Yes, but it's only because I care about you"
"You care about me?" I paused "Am I even talking to the right Loki?" I questioned as a small giggle left my lips
"You are always talking to the right Loki" he smiled at me

Everything was so different right now, I didn't know if Loki was speaking the truth but I guess I'd just have to take it as it is. Deep down inside my heart I couldn't help but feel me gravitate towards him and each time I did I felt alive. Was this what falling in love feels like?

Myles and I were no longer together which saddened me as we had so much fun together. Yes, Myles and I had history but when I was with him, I never got these feelings. I felt so lost but I had one question running through my mind.

Eventually I plucked up the courage to ask him "Loki do you love me?" I asked him
"Of course I do...but love will only get us killed. Love is like a dagger" he replied holding my hand
"Oh" I whispered kind of blown away by what he had just said "What do you mean?" I spoke as my voice broke
"What I'm mean is, I do love you, but please understand. If I let my feelings get in the way I'll lose you. These creatures want you dead and I can't risk that. I made a promise to Myles that I'd look after you" Loki replied as he gently wiped the tears from my face. "You're the strongest person I've ever met" he softly spoke.

As much as I wanted Loki right now he was right. Love would only get in the way of the war that we were currently fighting. To lose a loved one is like dying yourself but you still live on.

"Your mind is full of so many thoughts" Loki smirked
"Yes it is" I laughed
"Tomorrow morning will be better and I'll do some more training with you. While we have chance. You have potential" Loki replied to me, brushing my hair out my face.
I nodded at him as I smiled back.

Even though we aren't together our feelings are the same. But the war we are in could end in death and that's something both of us didn't want. For a few seconds the universe stopped and it was just Loki and I, that's all I wanted to think about while I slept.