Dear Ava,
I've committed suicide.
I'm so so so sorry. Words can't describe how sorry I am. To be honest, you are what kept me alive so long, because I knew how much you need me. I am so sorry but I can't do it anymore; I kept everything bottled up inside of me and never told anyone. It was all too much.
Please, tell Max, Monty, Jes, Jas and Aidan from primary school (my former best friends) that I miss them and how much they mean to me. You'll find a way, you're amazing like that. Tell the girls I had a fun time with them and the boys that they were always a good laugh and their company was amazing. Tell them about my suicide but don't tell them why. I won't even tell you why because I don't want you to think of me suffering. Tell them all that they were always the best friends ever. No one could come close to you though, Ava.
You are such a strong girl, Ava; don't let anyone EVER tell you different. You are so strong. And I am so sorry I won't be there to hold you while your crying about this, and tell you everything will be alright. I am so sorry. I didn't want to do this, but I've don't it now, and there is no turning back.
Please try not to be affected too much by this. Fulfil your dreams of working in a stable, or whatever your ambitions end up being. You're a lovely, bright person and don't think otherwise.
I wuv you so much.
Boo x
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My suicide letters (if I were to commit suicide)
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