"Paubaya" || Jihan ||

The one you need but not the one you love

When did it all start to change?

When did you started to feel out of love for me?

I loved you....but why didn't you told me in the first place that you already fell out of love for me?

All this time...

Was I the only one who was loving in the first place?

Was I no longer enough? 

Is that why you're already with someone else now and no longer in my arms?

I thought that we were suppose to spend our whole life together?

What happened to that promise?

Was I just another promise that you can't keep?

Did we spent too much time with each other?

Is that why you're tired of me now?

If you were just going to leave in the end then why did you make me hope that you'll stay with me forever?

Was I just an object to you?

One time you need me then the next time you're just going to throw me away.

For god's sake I'm not a toy that you can easily just discard.

I'm not a toy because I have feelings...

Feelings that you've hurted.

Is he much more funny than me?

Is he more attractive than me?

Is he more fun to be with than me?

Is he a greater person than me?

Is he smarter than me?

Is he rich?

Is he more loveable than me?

This questions...why am I even asking?

You left me because you did. 

Because you fell out of love.

Because you fell for him.

But why did you have to leave without saying a word?

You could've just said it to me directly and not leave me here hanging.

You could've just said that I'm the one you need but not the one you love...

You could've just said that because it hurts thinking that you love me when you clearly don't anymore...

I can accept things y'know...

I can accept it even if it hurts.

Jeonghan...

So why didn't you tell me sooner...

that you were already in love with someone else?