"Paubaya" || Jihan ||

The end of the road

I didn't think that we will end up like this.

We were so happy...

But that happiness was only momentary.

Why didn't I think that there will be an end?

Isn't the ending suppose to be a happy one?

Why did it turn out like this?

Aren't we suppose to end our story together?

What happened to our strong bond?

Ever since I introduced you to him, your eyes were never the same when your with me...

Was it because his the right one for you and not me...?

Is that why we ended up like this and you choose him over me who loved you first?

I'm already leaving right now but I still hoped to see you when I should be thinking of how I'm suppose to continue my life without you.

"Hyung, are you ready?" Chan asked

"Yeah....Let's go" I said as I got in the car

Chan sighed and looked back at their old house then finally bid his goodbyes with the house then entered the car.

This will be the last time I'll get to see this place....

Which means this is already the last chance that I'll get to see him...

Where could he be right now?

Cuddling with Seungcheol probably?

Or going on a date with him?

Maybe.

"What happened?" I asked as Chan stopped the car

"I'll just buy some water. I'm quite thirsty. Anything you want?" Chan asked

I shook my head, left to right, indicating that I don't want anything

"I'll be right back" Chan said as he made his way towards the convenience store. I plugged in my earphones and played the music called "Lonely" by Bolbbalgan4.

It kind of described my situation right now...

Lonely...

The lyrics 'You left me in sorrow'

It made me thought of the day you left our house...

You left me there crying alone and keep on asking those questions but you just left and didn't say a word...

You didn't even tried to look back...

It made me wonder...

Was I not worthy?

Was our love not worthy for you to not even spare me a last glance before leaving?

'You made me cry,

You break me down,

The time when I needed you'

I just got back home that day, already sad because it was also the day my parents died...

But you didn't even notice that there's something wrong.

Instead you left me immediately and told me to break up.