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{Bella's POV}

Noah seemed upset, but at this point I couldn't care less. He hurt me, and the second I mention that I'm over his ass he comes crawling back. Acting as if I didn't just go through gut wrenching heartbreak for months.

The lights went out, giving me time to prepare for the next song. A song nobody had heard yet. The lights flickered back on, but very dimly. "As most of you know, that was my newest song Good 4 U. And as most you also know, I just went through the hardest breakup I ever have. And I'm angry and sad. And hurt. And I think that Good 4 U shows the angrier side of things, whereas this new song, well it shows what I went through." I could see in Noah's face that his heart just dropped.

"This is traitor." I mumbled into the mic. The intro started, giving me time to channel that pain, and get into my own little world.

"Brown guilty eyes, and little white lies. Yeah, I played dumb but I always knew." I looked towards the back wall, making it seem like I was looking at the crowd. But I refuse to look at the man stood in front of me. Because I might just break down... again.

"That you talked to her, maybe did even worse. I kept quiet so I could keep you." I could feel his eyes on me. And I could feel hers, it made the pain worse. "And ain't it funny, how you ran to her, the second that we called it quits?" I glanced down at them, and she was wrapped in his blazer, his arm around her shoulders.

"And ain't funny, how you said you were friends? Now it sure as hell don't look like it." I glanced down again, and now his arm wasn't around her, she didn't seem pleased. "You betrayed me and I know that you'll never feel sorry, for the way I hurt."

"Yeah, you talked to her when we were together. Loved you at your worst, but that didn't matter. It took you two weeks to go off and date her. Guess you didn't cheat, but you're still a traitor." My eyes watered, glossing over with tears. That heavy feeling in my chest finding it's home there. The very same feeling I had when I wrote these lyrics down, drowning in my own tears. The original paper covered in tear stains.

"Now you bring her around, just to shut me down. Show her off like she's a new trophy." My voice shook a bit, the emotion making my throat tighten. "And I know if you were true, there's no damn way that you could fall in love with somebody that quickly." The stupid one month anniversary post. The stupid I love you in the caption. Who knew a caption could hurt me so god damn badly.

I looked at Noah, tears trickling down his face. He doesn't get to cry. He did this. "Ain't it funny, all the twisted games, all the questions that you used to avoid?" Oh, who are you going out with? No one. Is it Dixie? I'll see you in a bit princess.

"Ain't it funny? Remember I brought her up and you told me I was paranoid." Call me paranoid now, Noah. I repeated the chorus, my heart clenching at the thought of him here with her, listening to the pain he put me through.

"God I wish that you had thought this through, before I went and fell in love with. When she's sleeping in the bed we made, don't you dare forget about the way, you betrayed me." I felt a single tear roll down my cheek, dropping from my jaw. "Cause I know you'll never feel sorry, for the way I hurt." I looked at Noah, his tears never ceasing. 'I'm sorry, Bella. I'm so sorry' He said, but I couldn't here him over my music. But it didn't stop the sadness from growing. "Yeah, you talked to her when we were together, you gave me your word, but that didn't matter."

Noah Beck do you take Bella Coatney to be your lawfully wedded wife? I do. "It took you two weeks to go off and date her. Guess you didn't cheat, but you're still, you're still a traitor." I belted out traitor, my heart aching. "Yeah, you're still a traitor." I sang more softly, more tears rolling down my cheeks.

"God, I wish that you had thought this through, before I went and fell in love with you." The song came to a close, and I stepped back from the mic. The loud applause filled the room, I could tell from the clapping of hands. But I wasn't focused on them, I was focused on Noah. Who had his arm back around her.

I thought that maybe I was completely over him, maybe I didn't want him anymore. Maybe I didn't love him anymore. But the hole in my heart when I see them together say otherwise. How the jealousy creeps back. Or the thought of that should be me nests itself in my brain.

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I leaned over the balcony, the wind brushing past my tear soaked face. "I didn't know you could sing." I didn't turn around when I heard his voice, in fact I turned the opposite way, insuring that he didn't see my tears.

"What are you doing here, Noah? Why are you here?" He wasn't invited. I didn't want him here. "Can't a guy support a talented girl." I rolled my eyes. "Not when the guy is you, and the girl is me." "Why?" Because you fucking broke my heart. "You know why."

"No, I don't." I shook my head in disbelief. He's gonna make me spell it out for him. "Let's think, Noah. Let's think really hard. Who accompanied you tonight? Who did you have your arms wrapped around? Who do you love?" I turned around, fully facing him.

"You. I love, you." I scoffed, "then Dixie deserves better. I deserve better. You flip on me and Dixie like we're cards or some shit. Maybe if you had just left me alone, all this would be easier. But no, I mention slightly that I'm over you, and you pull this shit. I'm done, Noah. I'm done with it."

"Then you can't write songs saying that I don't care." I looked at him in pure bewilderment. "No, no! You don't get to come here and tell me how I feel or how you feel, because frankly Noah I don't give a shit! Don't tell me what I can and can't write, get out!" I yelled, pointing towards the exit.

"Bella you act as if I destroyed you." "Because you did!" He looked at me, his eyes softening. "Leave, Noah. Just fucking leave." I walked past him, angry and hurt.

Maybe it's time to drop the album.