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Bella.coat: SOUR - countdown: 1 hour - out at midnight 📸: @Vinniehacker
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____________________ {Bella's POV}
I stood by the side of the stage area, guitar gripped tightly in my hand. I think I'm gonna be sick. I looked at Vinnie, nervousness written all over my face. "I don't think I can do this, I know he's here. I... what some of his fans are here? What if they don't like this?" Overthinking was a common thing for me.
"Look, you didn't write this album for his fans, you wrote it to express yourself. You got this, baby. You have an amazing voice and this song is incredible. And, if Noah has any shit to say I promise to beat the shit out of him alright?" I giggled lightly. "Thanks, Vinnie."
"Alright everybody! SOUR drops in 5 minutes, Bella has worked so incredibly hard for this and she deserves all the happiness. Especially after what that douche bag did to her. Anyway, she's decided to give you all a live performance of her favorite song from the album. I'm so proud of you Bella, and of everything that you've accomplished. It has been an honor to call you my best friend and watching you grow as been amazing to watch. Okay, before I start sobbing and before she starts crying, I'm gonna get off this stage and let the real star perform." Kayla rambled, nearly making my tears spill down my cheeks.
She put the microphone back in its place. The stool was sat in front of it, the lights dimmed. I sat down, starting pick the strings of my guitar.
"I wore makeup when we dated, cause I thought you'd like me more." I tried to push down my nerves, continuing the song. "If I looked like the other prom queens I know that you loved before." I tried my hardest to convey the emotion. "Tried so hard to be everything that you liked, just for you to say you're not the compliment type."
"And I knew how you took your coffee, and your favorite songs by heart. I read all of your self-help books, so you'd think that I was smart." Stupid self-help books. Maybe he should start reading them. "Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me." 'Bella it's like you're obsessed with Dixie or something, I'm not constantly with her'
"I knew from the start exactly how'd you leave." I saw Noah and Dixie towards the back, cuddled together. "You found someone more exciting. The next second you were gone. And you left me there crying wondering what I did wrong." The fucking tears I cried over him. Over the fact that he was with her.
"And you always say I'm never satisfied, but I don't think that's true. Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you." I saw Noah whisper something in her ear, making her laugh. "And all I ever wanted was to be enough for you."
"And maybe I'm not as interesting as the girls you had before." Or the girl you have now. "But God, you couldn't have cared less about someone who loved you more." Past tense. "I'd say you broke my heart, but you broke much more than that. Now I don't want your sympathy, I just want myself back."
"Before you found someone more exciting, the next second you were gone." I tried to keep my tears to a minimum, focusing on the lyrics and picking the strings of my guitar. "And you left me there crying wondering what I did wrong. And you always say I'm never satisfied but I don't think that's true. Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you."
I pushed my voice a little more, trying my hardest to show people that pain that damned man put me through. "Don't you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded?" He didn't chase after me, he didn't try. "Don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing!" The month of excessive self doubt.
"But don't tell me your sorry boy, feel sorry for yourself!" I'm finally over him. No, please Bella forgive me. I'm sorry. "Cause someday I'll be everything to somebody else." I looked over at Vinnie, my heartbeat getting faster. "And they'll think that I am so exciting." I turned towards Noah. "And you'll be the one who's crying. Yeah, you always say I'm never satisfied but I don't think that's true."
"You say I'm never satisfied but that's not me it's you. Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you, but I don't think anything will ever be enough for you." He has a girl wrapped around his finger but no. No he needs both girls in the palm of his hands. Using both of us until he's bored.
I finished the song, my fingers eventually stopping against the guitar strings. I smile widely, proud of myself. I look towards the countdown clock behind the crowd, 1:23 remaining until SOUR drops. "Alright everybody, my album drops in just over a minute. Thank you to everyone who has been by my side through all of this. I wanna give a special shout out to Kayla, Riley, Anthony, and Vinnie for encouraging me and helping me find the confidence to drop this album. I'm so incredibly thankful for every one of you and all that you do for me. You have showed me what it's like to have fun and let loose. I want to shout out Vinnie especially for helping put myself out there and just go a little crazy. You have showed me a true connection from the start and not to mention you've made me better at skateboarding. Now, I'm done with my rambling. 30 seconds until SOUR drops!"
I stood up from the stool, gathering all the people I had just mentioned. "10... 9... 8... 7... 6... 5... 4.... 3... 2.. 1!" The crowd cheered excitedly, my heart thrashing in my chest. Also immediately the album started playing from the beginning. "You did it babes!" Kayla cheered, hugging tightly. "Couldn't have done it without you." I said seriously, hugging her back.
