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Sᴜᴄᴄᴇssғᴜʟ - 28

Ariana's POV

"So... Quinn seem's nice." I smiled uncomfortably as I sat down next to Billie's hospital bed.

"Yeah." Billie responded blankly.

We were both kinda tense.

I didn't expect to see Quinn full on making out with Billie as soon as we walked in.

I didn't even expect Billie to move on so quickly.

Finneas said all that crap about Billie being in love with me and then she pulls that shit?

I don't get it. 

"Billie, why did you do this to yourself?" I sighed, gently caressing her arm and staring at the bandages on her wrists.

She kept her head down and shrugged.

"I didn't come all the way down her just for a shrug, Eilish. I want an answer. Why did you do this? Hm?" I repeated myself.

She let out a frustrated sigh.

"I don't know, okay? All I know is it's none of your damn business."

"None of my damn business? Are you serious right now, Billie? I didn't stay up all night worried sick about you just for it to be none of my damn business. I deserve to know what's going on with you."

"Oh please, you weren't worried about me. You were probably to busy fucking your boyfriend anyways so what's it to you?"

Oh my fucking god.

"Is that what this is about, Billie? Me being with any one else who isn't you?" I quickly became angered at her childish reasoning.

"Yes, Ariana! For fucks sake, I was in love with you! I-"

"You weren't in love with me. You used me to numb your stupid ass childhood trauma. I understand that whatever you went through was hard.. but that isn't an excuse as to why you treated me the way you did. I'm over you and you need to get over me."

"I can't get over you, Ariana! Don't you get it? I can't get over you! You're carrying our baby for fucks sake. You were the first person who actually made me feel something other than numb and that scared the shit out of me, I'll admit it. 

But damn it, Ariana, I'm not about to lose you that easily.

I understand that I hurt you. 

I know what you're going through and I know how pissed you are.

I get it.

And I don't expect you to forgive me either.

You don't have to forgive me.

But please understand that I feel remorse for what I did.

And I deserve everything that's happened to me now.

But you got your karma and I got mine.

We're even.

But you don't have to pretend you care by coming all the way over here and asking what happened to me.

I'm fine.

I have a girlfriend now and you have a boyfriend.

I'm glad you found someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated.

But please...

Don't come back into my life just to show me what I'm missing.

I've already realized what I lost.

You don't need me.

I don't need you to yell at me and tell me that I treated you like shit.

I know what I did.

And I'm sorry.

But that's just who I am.

That's who I was born to be.

And if treating you like shit is gonna get you to realize that then so be it.

It was my mistake for falling in love with you. But don't make the same mistake by coming back.

It isn't worth it.

Thank you for coming by but I'd really like it if you left.

I hate having you see me like this anyways." She chuckled softly.

Is she serious right now?

She has to be joking.

"Billie-"

"Don't argue with me, Ariana. Just go, please. For the sake of both of us." She sighed.

I cant believe this.

You know what?

I am gonna leave.

"Fine. Enjoy your whore of a girlfriend, Billie." I huffed angrily.

"Thanks. Take care of yourself, alright?"

"STOP BEING NICE TO ME!"

"Then get the hell out, damn."

"I CAN'T!"

"Why not?"

"BECAUSE I'M NOT OVER YOU!"

"BUT YOU JUST SAID THAT-"

"I KNOW WHAT I SAID, I SAID IT TO MAKE YOU FEEL BAD!" I shouted out in frustration.

"You know what- Just leave. Just leave before we make a stupid decision."

"What if I wanna make a stupid decision, huh? Wha-What if I said I wanted to get back together with you."