Damian Black - The Order of the Night (English Version)

Mistrust - Chapter 14

"Back then, Liz saved me from a village near the sea. I was only thirteen years old. Liz was only eleven.
She trained me and we also made a trip to the north.
When we came back they wanted to take me as prisoner.
Liz was silent the whole time, as did Marco and Sasha. After a few days in hell, I was so desperate and the hate was eating me away.
When they wanted to embarrass me. I tore myself away and stabbed one of the guards with his own dagger. With that I got my freedom back and was assigned to Liz unit. "
Aidan didn't look away from him the whole time.
"Well, then you were probably more lucky than me."
He tried to control his tone so as not to scare Selim.
"Do you know what's different about you?"
Confused, he looked at Aidan, that was almost exactly his story.
"Liz and Sasha," he replied. "Liz kept telling you to run away. Sasha even hit you green and blue because of it."
He paused for a moment and looked up in the cloudy sky.
"Do you know what I don't understand about Liz?"
He said when he finally sat down on the meadow again.
"Why did she have so many seizures with you. Usually they are so rare, maybe twice a year. Since you've been here, she's had at least four."
Again he cocked his head.
"Something is wrong there."
The three boys were silent, Liz's screams slowly fell silent in the background.
"Selim, you also think that something is rotten in the Order, don't you?"
Damian remembered Selim's words back then. He and Aidan looked over at the young soldier. Who was pale as chalk by his standards.
"Y-y-yes."
He stuttered and clutched his chest as if he were in pain. It was all crazy. Damian grabbed his hair and brushed it back.
"I think Liz should be the least we trust." Selim said in a tortured voice.
Then he looked at Aidan, with a look as if he would like to beat his soul out of the body. The boy had clearly changed, but why.
"Kim, is on the list too."
Aidan said coolly and a loud hiss came from Selim. I wonder if that was the reason.
"Why Kim?"
"I've already talked to Selim about it."
Aidan began his next address. So that was the reason for Selim's weird behavior.
Well at least he could save himself this question now.
"Kim is the only person who can treat these attacks. Nobody else, and we're not allowed to learn to help Liz."
"Yes, because of what Kim learned at home."
His other comrade protested immediately.
"Yes, yes," said Aidan soothingly. "Just because there is mistrust. Doesn't mean Kim betrays us."
He soothed Selim in a calm voice. Before they all looked in the direction of the others.
Susy, Josy and Yaşar discussed beforehand.
While Kim still seemed to be with Liz. Otherwise he only saw three other men taking care of the horses.
So that was their entire group. If the others caught up with them with several hundred soldiers, that would be their certain end.
"We should move on as soon as possible." The words gushed out of him and in the next moment he was standing on both feet.
His comrades nodded in agreement and when they went in the direction of the others, Kim came out of the back of the coach.
He quickly got into it, followed by Yaşar.
Liz was still on the floor so they had to step over her.
The cards were also distributed everywhere. He sat down before the carriage started moving.
Started picking up the cards and shuffling them lost in thought.
"Freedom."
Liz talked again in her sleep and smacked her lips.
He almost smiled, but this time he suppressed it.
The others were right, you couldn't trust her.
He dealt Yaşar and himself the cards and they started to play. Without talking to each other.
"Sorry about earlier."
Damian looked up and saw how his friend had fixed his gaze on Liz. Still asleep.
"No, you were right. You can't trust her."
They nodded to each other and continued playing.
Who could be trusted in this world at all.
Each of his comrades was a risk to the other, but Kim and Liz were currently the biggest.
At least Sasha's and Marco's units weren't here too.
'There's only one person I hate, that's me.' Her words from the forest echoed in his head. 'Please rescue me.'
At that moment he hit himself in the head. His memories began to mix with mere dreams.
"She keeps saying freedom." He noticed. "Always after a seizure when she sleeps."
"Yeah, it's strange, but I don't think that's important."
Damian nodded and put down his next cards. Although Yaşar was playing the game for the first time, he learned very quickly.
After less than three games he kept pushing him into a corner.
Although it seemed to have a lot to do with luck, his comrade always had a strategy that got him out of a tight spot.
"Tell me Damian." He broke the silence between them after a few games and held out his card.
"Everyone else is wearing the clothes of the order, at least the ones I recognize, just not you. You wear these strange white clothes."
He put the card down in front of him and eyed him.
"I don't know, Aidan makes these cards."
He picked up the card and put it back with the others.
"You know, I only trust you, Susy and Josy."
"I see. Everyone is a risk."
"Exactly. When they betray us. We'll kill them."
"O-o-o-okay just because of a couple of cards?"
Yasar shook his head. He carefully glanced over at Liz who seemed to be still asleep.
"Certainly not because of a few playing cards, but for example Selim," he began with his best friend.
"It's not normal, he's always so happy. Nobody in the Order is like him."
Now Damian nodded to keep his buddy talking.
"Kim and Liz, the two are pretty obvious, Selim and Aidan already told you that."
"Did you hear that?"
His counterpart nodded without showing any emotion.
"Aidan, he almost never speaks, is actually loyal to the order. Suddenly he stands up against it and helps you."
The suspicion lay over him like a thick, oppressive mist.
How much he would like to contradict him. Basically he was right.
"Well, you are also a risk."
He propped himself up on the floor and let out a breath. When Yaşar ran out of color from his face.
"How do you mean?"
"I just mean that everyone here is a risk. This world is complicated, basically you can't trust me either."
He didn't break eye contact between them for a second.
This distrust was dangerous, someone just had to take a stupid action and everyone would jump at each other's throats.
"Everyone is a risk, which means the same applies to everyone, including Liz."
Damian looked over at her briefly. His head felt like it was about to burst.
"So please try to get along with her."
"You distrust her too, Damian, come on. She is to blame for the whole misery."
"Yes, that's right, but she also made the escape plan." He countered immediately.
"Don't get me wrong. My trust in her has been destroyed, but right now we have no choice but to stick together." He took a deep breath before continuing.
"If either of us is a traitor. I won't object if he is killed for the protection of all of us."