Mesothelioma

4. Birthday Wishes

"Cusp a dandelion in your hands,
close your eyes and blow the spores away,
make a wish and believe it will grow someday." -Unknown
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Today for my 15th birthday were not doing much. I was supposed to have chemo today but we switched it to tomorrow. Yesterday at the hospital all the nurses, doctors and other kids threw a party for me in the café where we had cookie cake, a lot of pizza and just hung out.

Today, mom and dad are taking me out shopping and then when we get home were supposedly going to have a big dinner with all the adults that live with us. Bobby, the butler, also my favorite out of all the adults in the house, an old man with salt and pepper hair and a round belly and a 'ha ha ho ho' cheerful laugh, told me that Chef Blaise Bernard is going to make my favorite! Parmesan-Crusted Chicken, served on a plate containing a bowl of Parmesan-Crusted Mac & Cheese and exactly three pieces of cheddar cheese.

He's also making cheesy mashed potatoes, roasted carrots, sweet corn and turkey. After dinner I think I'm going to go outside to the barns, hang out there for a while, maybe hop on the horses for a short time. I then plan on taking a nice warm bath, using my 'Space Girl' bath bomb from Lush, and listening to country music.

I think that if I didn't have cancer my days would last longer and be more exciting, I would get to be more daring. But, that's not how it is, sure I wish all the time that I didn't have cancer. But never would I ever wish this on anyone, not even my worst enemy, but that's cancer so yea.

What if we could give cancer, cancer and the cancer would kill the cancer in me and once the cancer in me is dead that other one would die also. That would be much easier than having chemo and radiation and surgeries all the time.

I know that I'll most likely die because of this cancer, but I'm hoping someday I will get well enough to just be daring and live, even if it's just for a day. Or happy, can I just be happy for one whole day? No pain or sickness, no hospitals, only fun.. And maybe, just maybe a friend?

I can only wish.
And when I blow out the candle tonight,
Maybe,
Just maybe it would come true.

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A/N.
***this isn't necessarily important doesn't need to be read just here if you want***

I know that chapters are very short but I just want to say that you will figure out why, so uh yea I know on other books people complain about short chapters but these short chapters are short for a reason.