resurrect my dead heart [KiriBaku x depressed! reader]

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kirishima's eyes watered. he was happy that she was smiling again. she seemed genuinely happy for once, but... not? there still laid sadness in her glittery e/c eyes.

kirishima was overjoyed she was awake. her lips, her eyes, her hands, her hair... HER. she was vibrant in the morning sun. she looked like a goddess in the light.

her bare feet swung over and touched the cold hospital floor. she padded over to her father and wrapped her arms around him.

he was still shocked. it was all too surreal for him. slowly but surely he responded by hugging her. then it all came pouring out. he started to cry. his hands came up to her hair and held her close. he kissed her forehead and sobbed out.

"you scared the SHIT out of me! I-I thought you promised me! you promised you wouldn't!" he cried out.

"well I think I should make good on it and not do that again. i've found my reason and purpose" y/n said quietly.

He looked down at me. "good" he said. he then pulled from the hug and sat in the chair in front of her.

you pov~

I looked over at kirishima. he was still in front of the doorway, jaw hinged open, and tears streaking down his face.

"hello, my red" I give him a bittersweet smile. he lets out a small sob before a shaky hand reaches his quivering mouth. he steps toward me before engulfing me in a hug.

he kissed me like he'd never be able to again. once he pulled away, he still held me and leaned his forehead against mine.

"please. please never leave me. I don't think I could ever live without you. I cant live without you" he muttered.

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in the days that followed, I went to the mall with the girls, and at some point, the pool with the class.

all the while, avoiding bakugou.

when I woke up, there was a note on the table beside my bed. it was from bakugou. it was a breakup note.

he wanted to breakup because he cant take the heart ache and that If he and kirishima weren't a good enough reason for me to live, then he didn't want to be with me because I was his reason of waking up in the morning.

soon though, summer camp came.

___

"y/n! sit with me!" kirishima said. I did accordingly and sat next to him.

"how are you, my beautiful red" I cooed. "im doing just fine, but you're more beautiful, my pebble" he giggled a bit.

"well that wouldn't be fair. if he ain't as gorgeous as, or more than me, I don't want him" I turned my head. "i think we make an equivalent" he said. he grabbed my chin and turned my head toward him, kissing both cheeks, my forehead, my chin, and finally, landing a small peck on my lips.

i giggled.

"ew! do we have to deal with this the whole ride!? blegh!" denki exclaimed, faking a gag. "imagine being single" i smirked at him. "once again, gotta congratulate my man, kirishima. he got the right one of the bunch" denki raised his hands in defeat.

"well thanks DANKi" i laughed. "really man" he groaned. 

the bus starts and i put my earbuds in. a few minutes later, kirishima taps my shoulder. i look at him and take one of my earbuds out.

i hummed in response. "whatcha listenin' to" he asked. i stared at him for a second before laughing and shaking my head. i hand him an earbud and lean against his shoulder. he lays his head atop mine and our eyes drift close. i fall asleep.

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"bakuwhore"

"what idiot"

me and bakugou were stargazing.

"what would happen if... died" i asked sadly.

"why the fuck would you ask something as stupid as that!? what the fuck do you mean anyway?" he asked in response.

"if i died, would you cry? would you even... care?... you know what, never mind" i said.

"yeah... i'd definitely fucking care. even though you're only an extra, you're one of my extra's so you do mean shit to me, so i'd fucking care if you kicked the damn bucket" bakugou growled

wait... i've seen this before... i've heard this before... this is no dream... this is a memory.

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i wake with a gasp.

"Honey bun, you okay?" kirishima said worriedly. i sighed and leaned back against him. "yeah babe, i'm fine" i sighed again.

"we're a few minutes away from the pitstop" kirishima said. "mkay" i responded.

the bus slows and everyone drags out of the bus. i, having the power to read the future, already knew what was going to happen. i ran to the back of the bus, grabbed my bag and went to grab kiri's hand.

"why do you have-" "shh. just watch. in advanced, love you and sorry" he got confused at my words.

the wwp (Wild Wild Pussycats) was about to finish their explanation of camp.  i checked my watch then looked over at aizawa who stared back with a look of disappointment, to which i giggled. i stood on my tiptoes and kissed eij's cheek.

i teleported to camp before my classmates and boyfriend were sent into the forest. i yawned and strolled into the camp building. i walked into the girls' room and claimed a tight corner, laying my things out before once again leaving.

i go nude and then go to the hot springs. i stepped into the hot water and sighed leaning my head back. feeling the water hug my scars was calming and for once in my life, i felt something i've never felt... neutral.

not overly happy

not extremely depressed

not excessively angry

not nothing at all.

calm, resting energy, the type you feel when you come home from a long day and you feel the warmth of home. when you have a chance to heal.

meanwhile...

"GEE KIRI, IF YOUR GIRLFRIEND HADN'T BAILED, HER QUIRK WOULDA COME IN REAL HANDY RIGHT ABOUT NOW" mina yelled at the stressed red head. kirishima started to ugly cry because he was being blamed for the situation and how much y/n could've helped.