resurrect my dead heart [KiriBaku x depressed! reader]

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!TW! reader discretion advised: mentions of drugs

"y/n listen, i do love you" bakugou pleaded. "then why did you break my heart?" i asked. "because..." he started.

"because what, Katsuki Bakugou!?" i asked. "because i didn't want it to hurt when you left! i thought that you were going to leave me behind because of your dad! and i would rather not hurt when it happened then shut myself down" he yelled.

"bakugou..." i said.

he grabbed my wrist and pinned me to the wall. then he kissed me. he open his eyes and pulled away to reach my eyes.

"please... let me be your reason" he said. i hugged him. "you always have been" i replied.

"... ew. get a room" the blonde chick said. i stuck my tongue out at her. "y/n you can get us out of here" bakugou whispered in my ear. "just wait kat. we need a bit of time. go along with them. do what they ask" i whispered back.

i held his hand and walked to the bar. i didn't officially forgive him, but arguing wasn't gonna save him.

"i thought you declined my offer" shigaraki said. "meh, i'll think about it" i said, sitting on a stool as bakugou followed my lead.

"good thing i dont have to kill a cutie like you" dabi gripped my chin and looked into my eyes as a way to intimidate me. of course it didn't work.

"back off. she's taken" bakugou growled lowly. "hm" was all the ravenette said.

bakugou pulled me to sit in his lap and wrap his arms around me, making dabi let go.

bakugou leaned over me protectively.

2 days later...

it was a few hours before 'the plan' from the heroes would be in action. i hadn't taken my medimication (medication lol) in 4 days so im now dealing with that. hopefully, bakugou wont not-

"y/n why are you shaking so hard" bakugou asked. "o-oh uh it's nothing" i laughed nervously. panic is starting to kick in. woohoo.

"you're lying" he replied. at this point i was shaking so hard i couldn't answer. isn't it just soo fun to have a panic attack for NO GODDAMN REASON.

"y/n" bakugou said trying to get my attention. i couldn't even think at this point.

"i-i...." i started. "y/n. hey, look at me. it's okay. it's okay, just focus on my voice alright" he said hurriedly, kneeling in front of me, holding my shaking hands in his.

"yo, the fuck's going on with her?" dabi asked. "because you douche bags decided it'd be cool to kidnap a girl with major PTSD and anxiety, which she takes pills for, she hasn't been able to take her meds in 4 days so this is happening, thanks to you fucko's" bakugou growled, trying to keep his voice down, as not to stress me out more.

"sheeeesh" toga squealed. "toga, not now. i know how bad PTSD sucks. half of us deal with it" dabi said, looking at me.

"yeah, but has anyone kidnapped you, making you not able to take your medication, which in turn has terrible side effects? no? that's what i thought" bakugou snarled.

once night came, all might smashed through the wall. me and bakugou were teleported somewhere else after coughing up black goop. bakugou protectively held his grip around my waist.

"bakugou, what're we gonna do" i stuttered out, noticing AFO. bakugou stayed quiet. his jaw clenched. "i-i'm scared. what if- what if you get hurt or-" "that's not gonna happen. just-just hold on, okay" bakguou said with doubt in himself.

i still cared, but i was still pissed. i need him to live... to breathe, but... he hurt me so much that it felt like i couldn't breathe or move on to live.

i see kiri a few minutes later. "KIRISHIMA!" I scream to him. bakugou blasts us up to him. it looked like we weren't going to make it. there was too much weight.

i pushed away from bakugou and gave him and my friends an extra boost. i make eye contact with kirishima.

he tries to reach out to me, as does bakugou. "NO! Y/N!!" kirishima yelled. i land then blast forward again to reach kiri and bakugou.

i land with kirishima. "baby... i thought-i thought i was gonna lose you again... i thought that before i even got you back... i'd just lose you again" kirshima cried into my shoulder. "listen, i'm okay... i'm a big girl... i can handle myself" i tried to smile.

"Honey, are you... are you having a panic attack? i can feel you shaking" he asked. "i-i don't really know" i said.

"i really thought that i was gonna lose you this time" he sighed. he picked me up. "rest. you need it. you've been through a lot tonight and this past week too" kirishima whispered.

i decided to let my tired mind consume me as the darkness crept in. i felt so tired. i was exhausted. my mind and my body were so done. physically and mentally, i was tired. i needed to rest.

the euphoria that i would experience in middle school when i would try to overdose on painkillers. or the first time i tried actual drugs. i was lucky not to die then. well, back then i would've said it was unlucky. why am i remembering this? what in my life is so relevant that i have to remember this? is it the euphoria kirishima gives me? the care he gives me?

i may never know... but i know... i would overdose on the happiness kirshima gives me a million times over just to feel the overwhelming feeling that he gives me... just once.