Through the dark

Part 55

You sit there a while and then get up. You wipe your tears away get out of the shower and go back out into your room. You go to your suitcase. You take out some cock comfy clothes and put them on. You wear sweatpants and a white cropped top and over that a oversized sweatshirt jacket. You then lay down in your bed. You look at Tom who has his back turned to you. You just look at him for a while and then turn away from him. You lay there and one single tear makes their way down your face. You close your eyes and try to fall asleep. You feel so alone even more then when Tom wants there. You wake up in the middle of the night because you have the feeling you can't breath. You sit up in your bed and try to catch your breath but you can't. You start to panic and you decide to go out. You open the door to the balcony and grab on to the railing outside. You look down and your able to breath again. You want to go back but your legs start to shake. You take one step forward but your legs get weak and you fall to the ground. You don't have the strength to get back up so you pull your legs to your upper body and put your head on your legs. Your whole body ist starting to shake and you lean your head against the railing.

Toms POV
He lays back in bed and hears that you go into the bathroom. He watches you until you close the door. He closes his eyes until he hears you coming out of the bathroom. He looks at you and watches you while you change. He then closes his eyes again and hears that you're laying in bed next to him. He thinks about turning around and hugging you. He just wants to hold you tight and kiss you but he doesn't. He starts to fall asleep thinking about you.
He wakes up during the night because he hears that you got up he tries to go back to sleep but he can't. He has a weird feeling so he opens his eyes and looks where you are. He looks in the bathroom but it's empty. He then sees the door to the balcony open so he goes out to look for you. He sees you ok the floor and runs up to you.

Tom: What are you doing out here? It's freezing. Are you alright?

You look away from him and start to tear up. You hate yourself for being so weak when he's around.

Tom: Come on darling tell me what's wrong.

Y/n: Why should I? You're not telling me what's wrong with you either.

Tom has tears in his eyes as well. He sits down besides you and hugs you tight. You push him away and look at him.

Y/n: So you're still not telling me why you're so upset?

Tom: I already told you I'm fine!

You look away.

Y/n: Ok you don't want to tell me fine tint tell me.

Tom want to take your hand to help you up but you pull away.

Tom: Come on let me help you.

Y/n: Just leave me alone.

Tom: Im not gonna leave you here on the floor!

Y/n: why not?

Tom: Now that's a stupid question. Of course I won't leave my girlfriend in the floor come on now.

He takes your hand but you pull away again.

Tom: Oj fine then we both stay here.

Y/n m: What?

Tom: Well I'm not going inside if you're not going!

Y/n: If you think that'll convince me to go inside then your wrong.

Tom: Ok fine if it has to be.

He gets up from the floor and just picks you up bridal style and carries you inside. You hit his chest.

Y/n: Let me go!

Tom sits you down on the bed. You're still shaking but you try to not to show it. Tom kneels down in front of the bed and takes your hand. You don't pull away this time.

Tom: Look I'm sorry for being so distant and mean to you. I was just.. it's stupid and embarrassing but I was jealous..

You look him in the eyes.

Y/n: That's all you were jealous?

You smirk and Tom looks down.

Tom: Yes i was. You're mine and I don't want to loose you! I just love you so much.

He then adds quickly.

Tom: And I don't like to share!

You smile at him.

Y/n: I love you Tom. But you know that. And you know that I will always do. You can trust me! You will never loose me I promise! And believe me I'm scared to loose you all the time too. There are so many beautiful girls out there who would literally kill me to be with you. They are all beautiful and it would be so easy for you to just replace me.

Tom: That's silly! I love you and I would never leave you for anyone else!

You smile.

Y/n: Look we're both worried for nothing.

He smirks.

Tom: Well I guess we're both stupid.

You giggle.

Y/n: Yes and that's why we're so good together.

Tom: Anyway. Let's not talk about that right now. Tell me what's going on with you? Please tell me what's wrong on with you I'm so worried.

Y/n: I don't know it's probably nothing to worry about.

He then realizes that you're shaking.

Tom: Hey darling you're shaking are you cold? 

You nod.

Y/n: Yeah a little.

Tom gets up and lays in bed next to you. He hugs you tight and lays half on top of you. You feel his warm breath on your neck and his strong arms wrapped around you which makes you feel safe and comfortable.