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Chapter 35

I immediately broke down into tears. I'm tearing this group apart. They're best friends and I ripped them apart, it's all my fault. I laid down on the bed and just cried. A minute later Clay walked in and without saying anything wrapped me in a hug. He didn't saying anything at all for the entire night. I cried for almost an hour before falling asleep. 

After waking up in the morning, I realized Clay had left and felt like breaking down again. I couldn't help but think to myself, "how could he be in love with me. I thought he was just a friend," as I got up and let my brain continue to wonder I thought, "He has always been there for me, he understood every feeling I've had, he went every where with me, and was always up for anything. Our conversations were some of the best I've had and I always feel good with him. Oh god am I in love with Sapnap?"

I got in the shower and tried to clear my mind, "no no I can't be in love with Sapnap, I love Clay. I worked so hard to get together with Clay and he's so perfect for me. Who can I even talk to about this I can't tell Clay and Sap would be my other go to. This is a fucking mess."

I got out of the shower and walked down stairs to get breakfast. As I walked downstairs I saw George, Nick and Clay sitting at the table having a completely normal conversation. What the hell. I walked over to them and said, "hey guys I wanted breakfast burritos for breakfast; anyone down to get some with me?" Sap jumped up immediately and said, "I'll go, you guys stay and come up with something to do today."

It was only about a three minute drive to get food, so I could handle that, six minutes in total, he can't go off on me again, right? We drove the way there in complete silence, I ordered our food and on the drive back he began to talk, "I don't want you to interrupt me when I say this, okay? I'm so extremely sorry for what I said and for what happened, I know you would never do that to me on purpose, but you hurt me, you know that I'm sure. Everything you do hurts me, when I can't be with you, I'm so in love with you, and I know you don't feel the same, and I know I'm hurting you by telling you this, but I can't sit around and say nothing any longer. I love you, I love the way you talk so passionately about the things you love, the way you stand up for yourself no matter what, the way you care about your fans and your friends, he way you're not afraid to be yourself around anyone, everything about you is so perfect." At this point we pulled into the driveway and I was speechless. We both got out of the car, and before we could walk into the house, he stopped me right in front of the wall. He grabbed the back of my head and leaned me up against the wall, then he passionately pressed his lips against mine and putting his other hand on my waist before pulling away and saying, "before you do anything, please remember that," and he walked into the house.