Un-wwanted lovve : Erisol

Chapter 25

ERIDAN POV
Your home alone because why would your older brother even be home? You don't when he is going to be home. Maybe he off chasing girls or something.
You are in your room staring blankly at your computer screen that has all the messages that screams your name just to kill yourself. You think killing yourself was stupid, now at least, but they still bring back the pain. Like someone scratching at your throat whispering just to get it over and done with.
You look at your clock at the lower right corner of the screen and it reads 8:44 PM. Shit better get to bed if you want to go back to that shitty place called school.
You grab your phone and set an alarm for 6:00 AM. Since Cronus will probably not be coming home that soon in the morning or anytime now.
You headed off to the bathroom you tried to kill yourself in. You took a deep breath and your stomach grew of disgust. It was thankfully clean from most of the blood, but something caught your eye.
You open the cabinet door and see there was a razor covered in blood. You knew it was yours and the cops and the ambulances did not take it away for evidence. You wondered why it was there, was this a sign? Maybe it was, but you don't think it is.
You grab your tooth brush and put some Aquafresh toothpaste on it. You began to brush your teeth to make them squeaky clean. You giggled at the comment and smiled in the mirror. You looked wonderful.
You splashed some water on your face and fixated your eyes at your neck with your fingers slowly touching it. Your eyes moved up to your cheek and met with your own eyes.
Your skin was oily and greasy, but you didn't want to take a shower. You where to lazy. Your lips where all chapped, you could care less. Your eyes, are violet with a darker shade on the outside, looked like they where in pain or they needed something or someone...
You went back inside your room and climbed into bed. You fell asleep eventually staring at the ceiling.
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You wake up to your alarm and groggily get out of your bed. You put on a sweatshirt since it was chilly today. It was mid October and almost Halloween. You looked outside your window, leaves blowing around in the wind, like fairies dancing to their favorite song.
You put on your normal clothes, a sweater vest with a white shirt underneath and khakis with it. You coughed a little and looked at the time.
6:30 AM
You went into the kitchen to get something to eat. Maybe your brother had left overs in the fridge or some cereal in the cabinet. You open the cabinet first to find no cereal. You shrugged, no cereal today. You tried the fridge, left over sushi. You groaned but grabbed it anyways.
You grab a pair of chopsticks, wasabi, and some soy sauce. You mixed the wasabi with the soy sauce in a little dish with the chopsticks.
You dipped a piece of sushi in the concoction and ate it. It wasn't that bad as you thought. You go for another piece, dipping it in the liquid.
You grabbed the container of the sushi and lift it up to read the expiration date. You gagged, it was a week old. Oh lord you just might throw up now.
You decided to go and dig in the cabinet, again. You find some Pop Tarts and you opened the wrapper.
You looked at the time on the stove clock, 7:00 AM. You had enough time to put them in the toaster.
You popped those babies in and they began to heat up.
You waited a couple minutes before shitting your pants to hear the pop tarts pop out of the toaster, to signal that it's done. It always scared you and you don't know why.
You roll your eyes and grab them. You jolted from the pain and gasped. "Fucking idiot" you thought "use a paper towel at least!" You grabbed a paper towel and grabbed the pop tarts. You set them on the counter next to the toaster and grabbed a glass of water.
You drank the glass of water and started eating the pop tarts.
You started packing your bad for school. You put more pencils in there since one got lodged into your hand. You look at your hand that got the pencil in it. There was a cast on your hand so it would heal. Your sighed and zipped up your backpack.
You took another bite from the pop tart and put on a jacket. After you put on your backpack.
You went to the door and took a step outside. Fucking hell, you hate school.
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You made it to school and walked through the doors. Some people that went past you gave you a glare and raised an eyebrow. Other people just chuckled and smiled at you.
"Today is weird", you thought, "today must be different."
You headed up the main stairs to your locker. You feel a slight tug on your backpack. You turned around to see who it was and it was Karkat.
"W-what do you w-want? Didn't you hawe to 'not talk to me.'" You rolled your eyes.
"Well here's the thing", he said with a gravelly voice, "Sollux isn't him today. Like he's not thinking straight. I think he's doing something after school. I really can't explain it bu-" He was cut short by a tall familiar person. It was obviously Sollux.
"What are you kumquatth doing?"
"W-well I w-was gettin to class but this gang banger over here." You pointed to Karkat. He was furious.
Karkat exclaimed "What did I tell you about insulting people you expired fruit cup."
You chuckled, who in the world uses fruit cup as an insult.
"Why are you chuckling?!" He was still angry. You shrugged at the question.
You felt like you belonged in this situation because it felt right. It was like you filled up a cup right to the brim without it spilling. You felt like you fit in.
"ED? You okay there? You've been thtarting off in thpace a lot lately."
"Mhmm."
Karkat left since he had to take a test for English, so it was you and Sollux.
"W-why are you ewen talkin to me?" You took a deep breath. "You hated me, like, 4 days ago. W-what changed you, Sollux Captor, to be all nice to me?" You exhaled and bit your lip.
"Let'th thee here thall we? Firtht I realized what happened, you didn't come to lunch. Thurprisingly, I went to the bathroom to check on you and thaw you weren't there. Like thom-"
You cut him off short. "If this is goin to be long please tell me later, w-we hawe school. Not counseling."
"Thure what ever, I'll meththege you on pethterchum then."
"Fine w-what ewer." You walked away and went up the stairs. You had 15 Mins until the class starts.
Your locker was on first floor in the left wing, on the opposite side of the school and up a floor was where you got stabbed by a pencil.
You opened your locker door with the combination: 46, 17, 39. It pops open to reveal all your note books and textbooks. They where all a mess, just like you left them. Your locker was always messy and never had the time to clean it up.
Your locker wasn't decorated, you didn't find the need to. You threw your backpack in and your jacket right after.
You opened your backpack and grabbed your supplies.
You made it up to your first period, then to the second to the third.
After a third period you made it to lunch, with your cafeteria food since you didn't pack a lunch. You where happy, you didn't run into Sollux at all.
You sat a table, alone, until Karkat sat across from you. While Karkat made himself comfy at your table you took a bite of your sandwich.
Karkat finally piped up, "Eridan if you want to tell Sollux how you feel, you just need to speak up okay?"
You rolled your eyes and frowned.
"You need to tell him, otherwise he won't understand. You need to make him think you are his one and only star."
Scoffed, "w-why can't he show his feelings better. He know-ws that he treated me like that and he know-ws." You began you raise your voice. "He know-ws that he hurt me, but he should know-w w-what I w-want for the both of us."
Karkat flared his nostrils and then, sighed. He sighed like he couldn't do anything but just watch this all unravel. It hurt because he knew what you where talking about.
You looked around, no sign of Sollux, then at Karkat. "Okay here's the plan, I'll go to Sollux's tonight, because it feels like your forcing me to do this."
Karkat smiled and ate his lunch and left. You finished yours and stayed.
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Your classes went well today, you thought, maybe that talk with Karkat was something planned. Was he trying to get you to go there? Did Sollux have something planed for you? You have no idea.
You arrived home from school and dropped off your stuff. You miss well go to Sollux's house to see what the hype is about.
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You arrive at Sollux's and see the door propped up by a beer can. Did he clean up from the party even? Or does he want you to come right in? You decided to go inside without knocking, quietly because he might be sleeping.
You smelt the scent of beer in the living room, you inhaled deeply. Yeah that's beer alright and lots of it. Wait what's that creaking!
"Aaaaah~ Sollux keep going!~"
You knew it, you knew it, you knew it.
You ran to the bedroom and see Sollux and Feferi. Them going at it made you sick.
Sollux pulled off of Feferi and looked at you. Wide eyed, feared. While you made eye contact, you felt your eyes get watery. This can't be happening.
"Oh my god! ED i-" Sollux said, you didn't want to hear what he had to say.
"Shut the fuck up Sollux Captor! You betrayed me tw-wice, tw-wice!" Feferi now got under the covers and wrapped up. "I had enough with you sending mixed signals and teasing me! I thought you w-where nicer than this!" You took a deep breath and made your final words to Captor.
"I. Hate. You."
You ran out of Sollux's home. You ran because it was the only thing to keep you happy. You rather feel the pain in your lungs than the pain on your wrists.
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You made it home to find a surprise at the door. It was Cronus, you thought you would never see him.
You rushed to him and gave him a hug. His eyes widened and smiled.
"Sorry I came home late."
"It's okay Cronus, do you know-w people cheat on people?"
He was shocked and nodded his head.
You both went inside and sat at the table. Talking and talking.
When it came up you told him what happened today. He was so open and accepted of what happened.
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A few hours later you felt sleepy, you smiled at cronus and said goodnight and went inside your bedroom.
You, Eridan Ampora, just got cheated on with, Sollux "Fucking" Captor, but you wouldn't call it cheating if you guys where never together. Today was a pain for you and you learned a valuable lesson.
Never trust people, ever.