The birthday blues by Madison Diana

Chapter 1 Invitations

Maddie-
I guess you could say Emilie and I are pretty lucky I guess you could say some people would kill to be in our position but sometimes it gets pretty annoying annoying screaming fans the intimacy the jealousy that people want to have with you I don't think everybody's very attractive but that's just me I know .

I shouldn't be so judgmental but at the end of the day when you had cancer it's only happened to your life you can't help but be judgmental you can't help but just be angry all the time you can't help but just have a love-hate and a lot of anger.

I try not to have a lot of hate and anger but it's hard it's hard not to have Haley and not to have anger but at the end of the day you just kind a got it put your foot down and be like hey enough is enough you can stop today I asked myself all the time Maddie is feel sorry for people a danger to you and all the people you love with the society are you just too nice Well next time I won't be so nice I thought I'll be me and a green jellybean I'm not gonna sit here and not gonna let people push me around no more I thought I'm angry I have a lot of anger in my heart given everything.

I just went through I was held captive for three weeks by sick and crazy man named Oli London even his name is stupid just like for gas but tell by the lovely face he was obsessed with my boyfriend were still together but I have a lot of difficulties with everything that he has done to me it hasn't affected my relationship but it definitely makes me more judgmental now why I love the basement with no food or water and you know 10+ people and apposite right next to where the mice waiting for you for your clothes if you been bad that's Trumatic I know some people have had a lot to say but my serious baby how are you are you by adding tell him I believe the teachers and here's a place for everything that's happened to me this push me over the edge I got married and I haven't really come out of my shell since .